Been cheated right away

Having dinner with few girls...as  I am currently choosing to have a healthier food choices...I op for salad instead of those delicious pizza slices, taught of doing the right decision.

Try to key in the information into my apps (my daily calories counter)...then got shocked to know that my plate of dinner is staggering 800 calories...that's not include my orange juice yet...thus at the end of the day my dinner alone is 900 ++ calories...and my chart for the day is RED....arghhhhh...stress....yesterday due to stress I already ate half pack of tortilla chips with dip... definitely another RED summary....thus there are no more allowance of calories for the week left...been trying to do extra push up over the last 2 days....need to be more persistence next time and careful with my food selection...does not mean salad is healthy...next time no dressing and no bread for my salad...hate it...(T_T)

Learn from mistake...hope next week will give me good news...insyallah ;)

Bosco

Warm garlic mushrooms, baby mozzarella, avocado, roasted tomatoes, spinach, rocket, balsamic syrup, honey & mustard dressing, warm dough sticks

Picture of the culprit...but its really delicious...800 calories...thanks a lot ..!!!

Update...

Last Wednesday is the latest weight day for me...sad to say I did not reach my targeted weight but i am still happy because even thou the reduction is smaller this time round..I have lost 3kg fats compared to 2 weeks ago...at least I know i am going to the right direction...already reaching my healthy BMI 25...but its still in the middle range...my target for this Maal Hijrah...get BMI 21 insyallah...hope every things goes well...amen...will update soon

p/s: The best part is when you get complement from long time no see friends that I have loose a lot...give more motivation....silently say to myself...I am going to be more happier & healthier the next time you see me...amen

Mileage.....

Yes how far has my mileage for 1 of my journey on fighting level of fat since landing in this City ???....fyi....been fighting this since 2 yrs back.... exercise, slimming centre, product ...etc2....everything do not bring the result that i desired....nearly lost the courage to fight and at the point of excepting it...

But then again...Allah have plan something else...summer holiday...meet 1 girl who have quite an extensive knowledge about food and diet, from her I learned that the key of fighting this battle is quite simple...calories counting. No matter how hard you train but at the end of the day you still indulged with all the crap....the fat will still be there and plump up....sad but true.

I have try to exercise consistently 1 hour per day...but the weight still do not shred off...then the biggest challenge of all reducing the amount of food intake...this is are the hardest coz i love food too much..but  in order to get the result drastic change need to be made.

The weight lost may not be much for others...... 4 kg in in 4 months..it means 1 kg each month....(even its not reaching my goal of 3 kg per month...i know....) but then again if it consistently dropping each month.. going forward without adding back its good enough. Slow but surely shredding it off for good!!!!

Keep on doing it :

1) 2 days of fasting in a week ( Mon & Thursday)
[but I may change it according to my schedule but making sure in 1 week regardless of the days it gonna happened...but most important of all when breaking fast...allowed yourself to eat small portion of food....500-600 calories only] ...tips gain from Channel 4

2) Weight training....just started like a week ago...long way to go for me to see the result. (need to do it as because even i lost my weight but the body fat % is still increasing...so need to burn those fat for good and in the same time building up muscle...to make sure i am doing it in healthy way...just 20-30 min a day...not more...small but consistent)

3) Eliminate all the crap from my food.... 70 % of my groceries are fruits and vege...and i have introduce brown rice and wholemeal pasta for my meal.

4) Only eat rice once a week...this is really sad...

5) This may sound corny...but it seems working...try to take picture of yours each week and see the different from each photo...as i am a visual person...this really give motivation for me to see a healthier body :)...

6) Have a date with the scale twice in a month and check the body fat % carefully.

7) Measure yourself with tape each week...so you will be aware where is the problem area specifically ;)

Thats all for now....will update the amount of weight loss soon insyallah...by the end of the month :)

What's Important

It time again for me to scribble's something that had been in my head lately. I have once reach the top of my life, when everything was so awesome and great. Its not to say that I am not now, but nowaday's can be consider as my thinking/pause time. Where I need to rethinking and re evaluate back all the things that I want  in my life. I don't want to be on top on the world but in the same time I felt so lost and a very big hole in my heart, emptiness filled the atmosphere.

Thus, with the pause button that had been granted by Him, I am carefully constructing back the kind of person that I want to be. I am thanking my parents for giving me such a good foundation in life, because every time I fall, no matters how hard and pain full it might be, insyallah with His will I know how to get up and running back.

Thus I want to keep few thing as a reminder to myself:

1) Religion is the up-most important. Ya Allah I am born Muslim and I want to live and die as a Muslim too. Please help me to continue being able to practice and committed to be a Muslim.

2) Prying that in what eva I do He will continue guide me to the right path. A wonderful career that not only bring benefits to me but also as an Ibadah to you. Not to forget, being able to contribute positively to our Ummah. 

3) Help me to continue to be the person that my family and friends always thank full having and insyallah proud off.

4) This posting will be WIP and update continuesly amen Ya Rab

It been nearly 2 yr ++ i am struggling with 1 of many problems in my life. I try my best to tackle it one by one, coz if I look at it from far, I am going to faith due to the volume and capacity. One by one, insyallah. Pry to Him that I am gonna Istiqamah with it. Allah will always grant your wish if you pry and work it really 10000x hard.

So starting last month I have taken steps towards tackling one of the problem...guess what which one ??....hahhaa...my weight of course. It has been awhile for me not to think about it. Been trying lots of method before that why I felt tired aka malas to continue as there is no positive result.

But then a month ago I weight my self and totally in shock. I have gain so much up until I am already reaching  Overweight area with BMI of 28...just 2 more point I am going to be the most unwanted area...OBESE.
Only Allah know how shock am I with the figure. My waist measurement at that time is already exceeding the healthy zone.

And to make thing worst, my family already keep on complaining about my rapid gain. Few people have approach me to sell their product. I have try few and lost noting except my hard earn money.

Getting news that my older brother has lost nearly 10 kg and my sister in law 7 kg make me felt so envious. How come at their age they still manage to loose such significant amount of fat??...my younger one also have loose 5 kg.

Due to all the family pressure existed it has fuel me to do the same. I cant bear the idea of being the only one who is bulat holding the Doremon tittle..arghhhhh

Thus for the past 1 month I have take effective measure. My target is to loose 14 kg in 6 months. So my target date will be on Dec 2012. By saying that 3 kg each month is needed, equal to 0.7 - 0.8 kg each week.

I keep track of my meal each day, target only 1200 calories consume each day (in which many have fail especially in the 1st week). Trying to be consistent to be active 3 days in a week 30 minute each session. (brisk walk 4.0).... this is the one that I highly doubt....Ya Allah give me the strength and passion to lived healthy.

Oh one more thing target to consistently fast after this Ramadhan on Monday and Thusday. Reminder to my self only fasting day on 600 calories is allowed. Thus no excessive breaking fast food ya. Based on recent study fasting 2 days in a week can reduce the risk of cardiovascular illness. No wonder in Islam we are recommended to fast 2 days in a week. Allah is really know so much...He is the creator...He is the one that really know what best for us.

So going to pry and work hard towards the goal. This week I should weight my self to get the recent measurement taken. Maybe tomorrow will be great insyallah, will update what the progress :)

Europe Tour....Part 2 & all

After a lot of thinking, i have decided that its better for me to change to layout of how I going to present the 16 days adventure. Rather than explaining it in words that's going to be boring I guess.

So I gonna  do it in picture and hope the reader can feel how I felt during the journey insyallah ...ok let start!!

Picture taken on the 2nd country we visit, Heidelberg Germany. Walking towards the train station to get to hill to see the whole city. A small and old city that is full with history.

Going to the Disneyland castle inspired in Fussen Austria...

Scholess - Castle 

Neushwanstein - Neu -New - Shwan - Swan - Stein - white

Thus Castle of White Swan 

Picture of the castle will be uploaded soon....

Picture taken at the camping site in Austria. Really clean and friendly people. Even got a tour around the camp site with buggy by the staff :) ...oh at this place i got hug by a friendly dog...shocking wet...samak la then....huhuhu

Taken while in Holland - The fishing village 

Amsterdam full with bicycle, note the 3 story parking area...

Weed sold openly in Coffee House/Shop in Amsterdam

Next its Italia.....picture taken in the Vatican City

 

Vatican City from far....remember Angel & Demons ???

In Venice, small and very complicated city with lots of tourist. Prepare to get lost :p

The Gondola - Venice

Jetty at the Venice City...Zattere

Rome - The famous Colosseum, its really hot here...nearly knock me down, spend more than 10 Euro just for water....full with history of the century  

Can you see it???...the most end building

              Pisa up closed...great experience...get lost again, walk around the city the whole evening. Only come back when its already dinner time :)

Will upload the cleche leaning Pisa picture

This is the picture taken at the under the sea train station...everyone seems exited...

Will upload France and my favourite place ... Switzerland in the next posting...too many ;P

Out of Randomness...

Once a upon a time…

I sincerely brake to pieces ...shattered

Trying to pick up the pieces and working hard to patch it back to its original state…

In which I know I can’t

The imperfection created is part of the proof that I have survive another kind battle  

Time heals...as cliché as it may sound…I am now one of the witness

Do not ask me when it happens…it just does

All those memory, still stored but I guess it has been fully covered with something new

All those song that used to be so meaning full now felt so empty…

From far, I pray that Allah ease you as the way He has grant me…or maybe more

From you…..I have learned so much

Understand so many question, become more wise, poise and grateful 

16 days adventure...Part 1

Heemmm...welcome back to world of reality....been thinking how should i approach in tabulating the layout of my 16 days trip around Europe....should i do it chronologically or mix n match of stories..part by part??...ok let see what come out...how much i have the adrenalin to type..heheheee
   

  

Joining the budget tour organize by Kelana Convoy, comment...real budget to the max...minimum supervision but best of all great experience alhamdulillah.

What can i say...the experience gain is just out of my wildest dream. I can't thank Allah enough for this wonderful opportunity and rezeki...the county visited is just too beautiful subhanallah.

Recap :

Day 1 

London to Amsterdam 

Departed from Park Lane, London at 8am and once arrived the bus is nearly full, thus we only manage to get on the far end of the sit in the coach :P then travel down to Kentabury to pickup another 2 people...a couple who turn out to be the only married couple in the trip. Abg Andy and Kak Ina. Both are very lovely couple and very entertaining. 

Stop at the train station to get into undersea train that connect UK and Europe..such and experience and again buy something...hahhaa...what else card game...to fill in the time...and we'll play all the way in the bus...

 

Oh not to forget got my self a new book for the trip The Social Animal then we head to Belgium, and 1st stop P&J for Belgian chocolates! 

Then continue into Holland, we'll set up camp near Amsterdam. 1st night as been agreed by the other girls to set up a tent instead of cabin...yeaaa...such a wonderful experience...Great camping site...very2 clean place and very quite area except for 1 tent near us who party all night up till 5 am...in which i did not bother at all as once i am in the sleeping bag...straight away in the wonderland....just pity my other friends who keep on mumbling about it...  

Day 2:  

Amsterdam and Volendam

After breakfast, we drive to the picturesque Dutch fishing and cheese village of Volendam. Before that stop at one of the local place to watch how cheese and dutch wooden shoes are being made. Then its start to rain, slowly but surely getting heavier each hours..then we walk around the village in the heavy rain looking for cheap goodies and seafood for lunch.

1 important facts about this place is that they are the expert in diamond cutting all over the world. As my pocket now label as student i can only watch the places...not dare to get in...as to avoid myself from sakit hati....hahahhaha :P And note that the village is actually on a the dam (barrier built along Holland to hold back sea water) and marvel at the fact that most of Holland is below sea level. 

Then we pose for a memorable picture by the windmills. Then head straight to the capital city of Hollad....Amsterdam. We took the ride in the canals and get a better understanding of the historical information about the place.

3 interesting facts :

1 ) Majority of the houses there is very high 

2 ) And most of it is till-ted style 

3) Each house have a hook on top of the house 

Reasons :

1 ) Majority of the houses there is very high ( Amsterdam historically always have flood in the old days)

2 ) And most of it is till-ted style ( they try to show that their house is bigger compared to others in a very subtle way as Catholic forbid them to be extravagant...i find it very amusing..really) 

3) Each house have a hook on top of the house ( on this part please refer to the fact no1...the hook can be used to transfer the furniture from the lower level to the higher one without much hassle...on one more important facts their window a super larger...the size is the same with their own door) 

Then we wonder around the city and nearly get into the red light district...in which we already make run out off it.

Historical information why Amsterdam have such a big and popular red district area compared to others is because the area is a famous port since the Medieval time till now...thus lots of ship will dork there and by saying that lot of sailor will go down at the area to find girls and smoke weed.

I am serious, weed are being sell openly there in the coffee house and clearly stated in the menu and customer can order and enjoy it in the open area. Their liberal thinking is just too much for me. Sex and pleasure is openly practice...they even have Sex museum openly wide for public.

As for the good thing about Amsterdam is that, there people the is very2 tall. The main transportation is Bicycle...the old version one...every where you see the people the a very slim. If a mother have 2 child the bicycle will be modified to fit the kids...and if they have pet..there will have very cute basket either in front or behind as their passenger. 

Oh their also have electric car everywhere, even you can rent that widely available it around the city park near the canals.

Once a point of time....

Is it logical for someone that neva had period pain in all her adult life, got a very2 serious attack all the sudden ??....at ist taught it possible...1st day...painfull like hell...2nd day...vomitting...dizzy...pain in the lower abdoment in word can neva be describe...still cool...making my own hypothesis that its normal for period pain to be like that...thats is only the beginning

The next morning...lalalalaa....going to class so happy...because it revision day for my fava subjectn topic...deravative + hedging...hoyeee....morning class was superb...but after lunch everything down to the hill...keep going to the toilet back n forth...then around 3 i just cannot bare it anymore....maka menitis la air mata in the middle of the class...excusses my self...running to the hospital...thank you Ya Allah its just like 10 min walk to Guy Hospital...in front of the counter....trying to keep my composure...let the nurse know...then she ask me to go to St Thomas..reasons being...i cant really remember as my brain is focusing on the other thing....running again to the shuttle bus...

Just skip all the detail....i am being admitted to A&E Unit in St Thomas, 3 times pain killer...just mention it...atas, bawah semua kena sumbat....i wont give detail...the last one that works...morphin...afterwards...wow...still feel the pain but i am in cloud 9....lost...like flying...ooo....this is how it feel like...taught of not taking it...but my pain just unbareble...

Xray, blood test, urine test, CT scan, doctor consultation's...5 doctors i guess...as far that i can remember....from being admited to A&E to going back to Nurology at Guy's Hospital....the journey...is too tiring...even to tell it...i do not have the energy...

This is not the 1st time i am being admitted to the ward...2nd time alone....the 1st one once i am still in KL...again alone...Ya Allah how big is your Rahmah to me...you give me the courage to be able to overcoming it.....comment..mmg the professionalism is totally different...remind you when i was back in KL its private hospital...but here its public hospital...but the service i would say far batter off compared to Glanegels KL.

I felt so greatfull for having such an owsome doctor, nurses, radiologies, paramedic team and staff nurse...your service is truly amazing.

Even the sensitivity for me as a Muslim also been taken care accordingly.

Its true when Yusuf Al-Qardawi say...I see Muslim in the Western world...how i wish one day Malaysia will be like that :)

...

Hemmm...exam is just around the corner...but today thats not the main theme of my post.

I dont know weather i should talk about it or not...but then agian..something need to be said.
Normally you will dream at night because he/she has been thinking about that matters too much during that day..thus the brain create an electron that playback the situation when our body is resting. Over this week as exam is around the conner, majority of my night is...what else...other than study...in hoping that during the night i can dream about it and drill the information into my brain...;)

Most of the time its working...coz thats how i remember thousand of client information especially loan account...back then..you can ask me up and down i know it...coz i even bring them to my dream...how workholic i used to be....and i even remember it until now :P

So hoping the same mechanism to be used for my subjects.

But then again, something really wierd happend....last 2 night i drempt about...i cant really remember the detail..but sumthing about how i dress...how i need to be more modest in my appearence....i thinked my late dad was in it...and my brother....make me thinked r my dressing not modest enough???...i remember after high scholl i made a to promise to myself that i will improve my akhlak more internally rather than outside....but then again its seems not enogh lately...

Maybe its kind a good reminder to me to try to improve on how i dress...moving on....

But then again last night dream is more serious...as usual i cant really remember the detail...but what i can remember is i am so near to sakaratul maut...i meet my mom in it.....

If all this are a sign...what is it??...i want to ask my brother....but i am worried he will flip out....i am so far away from my family....i dont want them to be worried about me.

I know i should not mention this to anybody, thus i choose to blog about it...for those that reading this please do not worry....thats what i told my self....just please pry for my safety, health and ofcourse the fact that i need to past my exam.

p/s: Maybe i stress my self too much...thats why all this wierd dream surface..;)

Oh my....

I am being a really lazy bone lately...onlys study like 2 hours only per day this weeks...r u crazy girl???...its only few more weeks to go...arghhhh....stress....i dont know where all my energy go....malas2 tahap gaban lately...everytime study cam kena buat cam activity budak2 tadika...baru leh focus...what happend???....i used to be person that can stay focus for hours n hours...only start to realise time past once my stomoch make a symphony of ochestra.....why???....why???...ist because i keep on skipping my jogging lately???...or should i blame the rain that make me felt so cold everytime???....which one???...need to find solution fast !!!!!...any suggestion so that i can get on the sadle of hardworking+deligent student back...i need to get over this papers asap...keep on telling myself that...but its not working at all...see i even have time to write my blong during my normal study time...this is bad...really bad!!!!

Really hope its only a sat back...will look for my focus back n need to be more stringent with my self...help me!!!...pry that i can give my level best in what i do!!!

I need to do justice for myself....period!!!

p/s: please help me pry n find solution to this madness!!!

Save life concert - HMV Appolo, London

From MASB (2010) to Stadium Shah Alam (2011) and the latest HMV Applo London (2012)...i have been given a chance to go to Maher Zain concert.

This year its been held at HMV Appolo Hammersmith London around 1 hour 20 min journey with bus. Its one way after Royal Albert Hall.

The concert was owsome because it manage to gather all Awekening artis under thier recording label.

Something different here is that this concert are for charity...just the same with Malaysia, but the big different is appart from the crowd, they made an auction session in the middle of programme.

What are they selling???....its a chance for people to select the amount of charity that they want to give to save an orphan in order for them to open a school for orphan at Bangladesh.

Its start with £10,000 per year spnsor commitment...then £5,000....£2,500....£1,000...and £350...each year...what really exciting is that the whole hall was full with excitement....i think for £1,000...around 70++ people raise they hand to commit to the pledge....

I ???...if you may ask??....was crying silently all the way...felt so warm with the level of philantropist activities .....actually the main reason is that i do not have money to give my part to this orphan....really heart breaking....at that particular of time i silently promise something to myself...hope one day i can fullfilled it insyallah....amen... :)

Breakaway :)

My health is getting better....now i know what its need....a rest...and lots of walking n breathing clean fresh air....so greatfull...thank you Allah...

FYI...just come back from a trip to the coutry side of UK....the national park....Lake distric...nearly 600km ++ from London....

Drop by at Bermingham...Mancester....Kendal...few lakes n hills...Leeds and Nottingham....

Got the experince to drive in UK...got GOLF VW...thats the cheapest car...hahaha...was like...the car standard here same just like our kancil back in Malaysia...

Will try to get the picture from all the camera women n upload it for sharing...such a wonderfull experince...thanking Allah for such wonderfull chance given :)

hemmm...

I know i should be writing the edin part 2 n 3...actually i have do it...half way...WIP...its in the draft section...not feeling like it...just be patient with me...my tantrum up hill right now...too many things in my head...

Oh just wanna highlight one point...in the wilderness of studing the menimbun material for my papers...my head are crunching too many thing...i dont like it at all...warghhh...benci betul when i come to this state...dear pls...do it one by one...dont be in the rush...take it easy...try to learn to dance in the storm ok...n enjoy it ;)

Just remember all the good thing that He has give to you for the past week...a lot right??...so why should you only look at the thing that He do not give???....only give you stress and unsatisfaction k...your life is being written by Allah...He have a great plan for you...be paitent...n strive harder...keep on crushing the wall...it will come down to pieces one day...put enough pressure to it...it will happend....you can do it!!!!

Among the many more reason why my health down the hill lately...1. Keep on skipping excersise 2. Stress 3. The happy hormone is not produce enough...need to force my self to go to park tommorow!!!!!

Edinburgh - Part 1

Truth be told my mission to Edin byk betul halangannya...start with all the tiny thing to the big one...hahhaa...after my friend told me that we got 1 week off from class...i say ok...i just join you guys...only to be inform letter that i have classes that week...wah pain to the ass man...coz i am the one that plann all the journey...ecxept booking the train ticket n hotel...so sad at 1st give my friend the copy of my detail artinery plan yg bersusah payah aku buat...dalam hati..its ok not my rezeki i guess...dalam pada dok mencari org refill my seat sampai weekendnya diaorg ckp tak de sapa yg bleh pegi on the date...and the same day i got email from college mention that my class has been reshedule...omg...alhamdulillah...He has plan it all so well for me...hoyeeee...so Edin here i come :)

3 words that i can simply decribe Edin PANORAMIC, SMALL and HISTORIC
 
Day 1 -

Wake up at 4 am and get to King Cross St Pancras Station...with half eye open...dam London dah busy with people at this hour as the bus that we take is full house...

Train journey approximately 4 1/2 hours...view..breathless...mixture of highland, valley, biri2 and ocean baby.

Arrived...start walking to find the central mosque of Edin and have nasik beriani ori with lamb...dasar perut melayu...gi jejauh pun carik nasi...1/2 hour walking and then we notice the new building of Edin University...wow...then we got to know yang Edin Uni is cosist of half of the city...the building scarted around in the city itself...the Medical School looks like Hogwarts man...so cool...

Pergi menyesatkan diri lagi...sbb terpesona dgn all the flowers...smpai tersesat to the Medow...jauh sgt  pergi tu...hehehee...

Then we go back to the hotel dah hilang arah...hahaha...all the sudden a guys tegur n help us out and say he's working at Glasgow Uni and very familir with Malaysian n the guys with him sumpah muka melayu but he is Thailand...so greatfull...then checked in and to our surprise we got 4 beds...the receptionist say its our lucky day...maybe coz its weekdays and not busy seasons yet...

Then continue menyesatkan diri.. at 1st i tought its a short cut...but in the end its a long cut to the Calton Hill...hahhaha...nak habis nyawa...sbb on that day we have climb 2 steap road time sesat cari the centra mosque...kesihan my friend...time ni la i can feel the energy of excersing but still aku kalah dgn old couple infornt of me yg lagi laju mendaki...hebat btl...i bet they age around 60 plus...arghhhh...how come??....kena byk lagi improve la nampaknya...hahhahaa

 But when we reach to the top...its worthed...dam its soo beautiful n breathless...so green...n the bonus part can see the ocean 180 degree...felt like on the top of the world...2 hours speed to go around the hill yg kecik je sebenarnya...but we take our own sweet time enjoying each conner of the hill...hheheeehhee...

And dasar perangai Kampung girl sejati semua benda aku nak buat bergolek, memanjat sesuka hati ku...felt so fresh..can lompat2...

On the above picture are among the 2 iconic monuments lays on top of the hill....the left one is the observatory...and the right one they try to imitate the building at Athens...tp kenapa ada tiang ja???..kalu korang terfikir???...notes this hill bkn rendah...agak parit jgk utk didaki....then how la benda tu wujud??....ikt story org2 Edin they used human labour n setiap kali siap 1 tiang 1 celebration will be done...by the time the 8th piling done the owner dah tak dak duit....mengong...show how pour financial decision making done...

Due to my friend request we go back to tempat we sesat at 1st...St Paul square...sbb nak tgk live exhabition...layan...unique...its involve all the micro picture, medical and NASA collectio...then buy dinner....bread n salad for me...felt so fresh...tp kaki dah start sakit yg amat....

Near to Maghrib we go back to the hotel...nice..watch tv...take bath..solat...then aku tgk 2 org dah tergolek atas katil...

So aku pun join sekali lepas penat tgk tv...around 9 plus dlm mata tertutup aku bebel kat diorg...wanna go out or not???...my feet is still kiling me...if u girls wanna go out wake me up....then aku dah tak sedar apa yg diaorg bebel balik...hahahahaaa....sampai la subuhhhhh

New Hype

Make a wild guess what's on earth is that weird white looking thing???...the green spred below is banana leaves.....yeaaa...@ Malaysia its very famous with Java's people or Indonesian...among the many2 fav condiments that i miss in my beloved homeland

Among the many things that i worried last time when iam thinking of living overseas...far away from our continent is that how on earth i can survive without all my fav food??...fyi i can dream at night missing my brother laksa at my hometown and Ikan Pekasam pelam, masak lemak pisang muda, asam keladi, cencaluk, tapai pulut, rendang pucuk kayu, mee kuah parit bobby...n the list go on...huhuhuhu....miss it soo much....i can cook al of that but..the taste will not be same as my brother n sister own cooking...hehhhee...ok i admit iam adik manja ok..sattle...tp they are the one yg pampared me...so tak salah kan??...hehhee...among the many2 reason why every time i got holiday..my destination gonna be  my kampung instead of other places...hahhahaa...there no place like home :P

Ok lets get to the point of posting this post...opening giler meleret...wanna talk about tempe...reason y i wanna talk about it...sbb 2 days ago my housemate got homemade tempe send from New Castle my by one of future doctor in microb...giler ko nak buat tempe PHD student ok...makngah aku kat Johor sure find its funny....dia buat menatang tu pejam mata je ok...high school pun tak habis...but i bet she's very intelligent if given opportunity...ok sebelum aku lari tajuk...sambung story tempe...sedap la sbb dia guna organic beans..but utk org yg tahu...the parameter of nak tahu tempe tu sedap tak...is the sebyk mana kulat tu cover the beans...sadly the one we got tak berkulat sgt...so tak la tempe tu dpt 5 star dari aku....tp alhamdulillah la at least ade kan???

So aku pun google and tgk utube...among the many ways yg i used if i miss Malaysian food...dpt tgk kat utube pun jadi la...kesian kan???...hahahaha...amazingly tempe is not something that alien at this part of continent...amazingly rupanya they know about it...and its the main source of protien for the vegan here...sgt hype la tempe rupanya....sbb time kat malaysia aku selalu kena perli...girls why r u eating that thing...... soo kampung....hahahaa...selalunya that person mmg tak rapat dgn aku...sbb mgg ko cr pasal namanya tu...definately kena smash la...hello iam a kampung girl so what???..sampai ke bulan pun aku still akan makan benda2 kampung ni ok...hahhaa...nahhh kau ambik tempe is a hype food kat London n US ok...nak tahu how much???...400 grms...GBP3.50....RM18.50 ok!!!!...sakit perut aku nak beli yesterday...kalu kat malaysia silap haribulan 1 guni aku leh dapat....hahhahaa....makngah aku leh kaya buat menatang ni kalu dtg sini...:P

But they call wit H....tempeh...instead of tempe...maybe lidah mat saleh..suka benor menambah2 words....hahaaa...funny....the one that i buy amazingly made from???...ce teka...amazingly its from Belgium...hahaa...kelakar sungguh...ok dah lapar plak bila sebut...lets masak...bon appatite :)

Values...

How we value our self???...based on its face value...market value or what its really worth ??? ....its current state or potential value its will become and brings ???

Have you eve ask how much you are value??...what kind of varable are we putting to make up the end result in the 1st place??

In accounting there is two different way of valuing one asset...book/face value or market value...the one the compay think how much worth there are and the letter how much other people think its valued...it can be overvalue or vice versa....thus i  guess its just the same as how we value human being it self...but we always being bombarded ...do not care how much other value you but how you value your self is the most important part...

Over the few months I have been asking myself....how much am i value???..to my self and others...what kind of variables that i put in to the consideration in order to value my self and subsequently...others???....brain, looks, attitude, believe, behaviour etc?????

In real world there are even professional that take this job....show how difficult the process its need inorder to come out with the result...not only that they even give value to the valuer its self...see my point???

I leave this post with a question still...what and how much is the parameter needed in order to come to the end value itself???....how we value our self..how others value us...and the most important thing how Allah value it???

Review on Mrs Money Penny's Careers Advice Book's

Picture pls refer to my previous2 post...tak jauh rasanya gap 3 to 4...reason tak upload...hahahaa...apa lagi aku tak cukup rajin utk copy n paste balik....n tak reti nak buat link to the previous post....hahhahahaa....lameeee ;P.....

Personally its very2 good for us ladies...to set our prariority right...between our ambition n life..yea mungkin ada yg akan kata perlu ke???....based on my previous experience sgt perlu....byk benda yg she share...selalu org expect perempuan kalu live on top of her careers life must be a "Superwomen"...while sebenarnya ia adalah vice versa...

Theory yg majority women in workplace have....just do our work....dont bother about others n hopping the big gun gonna notice his hardworking staff...hhahaha....sesuatu yg aku selalu buat jgk dulu...no harm to let others know how good you are occationally....need to find a balance...networking n being a good leaders and follwers in the same time are being discuss indept in her book....something that need a lot of practice in order to be perfected insyalllah

At the end of the day...i think do what we felt we passionate about and have the sense/reason why we are doing it the 1st place...coz the end of the day what we do will be question back by Allah in the judgement day...are we gonna be able to give justification in what eva we do in this world????....we all know this life is only an investment phase....insyallah pry that He will guide us all the way and the same time we are becoming a better person each day in everything that we do...regardless what eva we are doing...

2 days ago i saw a very dedicated cleaner from my window...what caught my attention is that how detail he is in his work...even cigar butt yg kecik nak mampus yg ada at the middle of the busy road he will carefully cross it and pick it up...in deed impressed!!!..okkk...night...hope we will do better in every thing we do each single day and become a more productive muslim insyallah ;)

p/s: oh lupa hari ni tahun lompat...happy 29 Feb...lg 4 yrs baru kita jumpa lagi insyallah :)

Masam Manis

Lately aku kengkadang rasa mcm ada ribuan perasa dalam hidup...dah macam lagi over dari flavour ikan 3 rasa ikutnya...heemmmm...its life...just deal with it.....smile...and +ve kan otak...everything will be fine insyallah...jgn diberatkan kepala dgn things yg tak bawa nilai dalam hidup...

In my heart berdoa yg hati ni akan lebih tenang n jiwa ni akan lebih bersemanggat dari hari ke hari...i need it...i have too!!!....usaha..usaha...usaha...n the rest serahkan kepada yg lebih berkuasa untuk menentukan segalanya...amen.

Benda yg aku teringin skg ni...huuhuhu...nasik kerabu dgn solok ikan...muhhaahahaa....sedapnya..ok until next time...mar kita pergi berlari2 di park di hari yg indah ini :)

Lots have change...

When i look back at the few years back....lots have change...from every espect of life...particularly myself...i am becoming more conserve n private...dont really understand why...i dont have the answer...seriously.

May be due to few events that happend that i try very much to forget just did not go away as it should be...i know people will say that i am ungreatfull what so eva...but i am tired being known to people...there are no more mystries about me...i felt like an open book....i just dont favour it.

I start to grow loving my own space too much lately...the beauty of not answering anything to anybody is a bless...i know people are concern...but seriously are there???....or they just being nosie???...i know we need to think +ve with people...but my sceptical level have just outgrown me over these recent years...my dear stop blaming others....its your life...you lead it...or someone alse will....and remember the main existence of you in this world in the first place...

Oh well these is me wining again...been a while not doing it..hehheee

So just for a quick lunch receipy that my housemate and i try for our lunch today...and i honestly the taste is......... subahanallah sedap sesgt yg hingga menjilat jari k...we dont even put it in the fridge as suggested but still it turn to be so good...

http://www.myrecipes.com/recipe/broccoli-grape-pasta-salad-50400000115388/

its Broccoli,grape and pasta salad...for the full recepies pls copy paste the link under the pic ya..i only ate 1 plate of it for my lunch eventhou i still have the etention to add more but my stomoch is too full already...hehehe...conclusion its soo felling n yummy :)...and not to forget its really cheap...i just calculate the cost...its only cost us GBP4.50....1 whole bowl ya...like 4 person portion...bless people who create this dish :)