I Don't Know.....

Seriously, I don’t know what to say….mix emotion sebenarnya….to the extend I still not talk about it with my brother…sbb I know if I tell him for sure the answer will be…just forget about it…don’t u ever forget how he has shattered ur world apart last time???...how we work hard just to put u back to one piece…how many of our family members are involved just to make sure that u r ok…how many baldi of tears that u have keluarkan??...how many of ur best friends and cousin come down to KL just to consol u…how many of road trip planed just to make sure ur learn to be happy again…..how many late night of Qyammulial that u have done just to find strength to forget him n try to find the happiness back to ur life???...how many email + books read to boost back ur confident….don’t make all that hard work flush down to the drain!!!!!!

But, what if I say that I am stronger now???...there is nothing wrong just being friends right???....but still how I can make sure that u not going to fall in the rabbit hole again this time????....if u fall again…I don’t think that u can ever gonna forget him….don’t waste ur emotion to the one that don’t know how to appreciate u….remember that!!!!!!

Arghhhhhhhhhh…..i hate when this thing happened…the message that I received yesterday really bugging me…….to the extend i can't even reread back the message...scared that the wall that i have build so long will shattered down just like that...ok just remember u have SHFT+ALT DELETE him from ur life last time….so just forget about it…just take his message as spam….(can I do it???...am I strong enough to do that??)


P/s : Currently listening to All American Reject - Gives U Hell ......... d(^_^)b

Apa nak jadi la????

Ok this is the second night that Mr. Migraine attack aku….entah yg ke berapa kali untuk dua hari ni….aku pun tak sure salahnya di mana???...salah makan kah???...ubat dah makan…pun tak jalan jugak….semlm dah MC…esk hopefully dah tak kena attack….mlm ni the attack mmg sgt melampau..lepas makan ubat….muntah….kasi rendam kepala dgn air pun….still not much improvement…so aku tekad semacam…gi ambik gunting dapur…sbb aku tak jumpa any other gunting….terus kasi cantas rambut aku yg dah panjang gila ni….aku rasa last it is this length time matrics dulu…aku igt lagi time tu arwah mak aku selalu dok puji…cantik anak mak rambut panjang camni(sbb dr kecik smpai habis sekolah aku mmg jenis suka rambut pendek)….then that time igt lagi siap she ajar me how to do sanggul without the needs of sepit or getah rambut….tu pun at last aku potong sbb demam teruk sgt tak baik2 time 1st year uni….heheheee….arwah mak yg tlg potong…her theory…kepala aku tak tahan panas sbb rambut tebal sgt…panas dlm badan tak keluar…tu la ceritanya…selalunya aku akan ptg my lovely hair kalu demam aku tak baik2…tp sejak kena migraine after aku kerja….tu r kerja aku….asal attack dtg je…terpaksala aku kasi cantas ja my hair….amazingly skg ni lega la sikit…tp tlg la jgn dtg lagi esk…aku dah korban dkt 10 cm kot….tlg la don’t ask me to shorten it more than this…pleassssssssssseeeeee………….plan this weekend…kasi kepala kat Along utk alter pencantasan yg telah aku lakuan tadi…..hahhahaa…J….Ya Allah…berikanlah kesihatan kepada hamba mu ini…aku perlu mencari rezeki di bumi mu ini Ya Allah….berikanlah kekuatan kepada hambamu untuk menjalankan tanggungjawabku…amin..amin ya rabbalalamin….