Its just totally weird...

I should not post this matter in the blog in the first place...but it has been bothering me since i wake up this morning...till now i can't simply get over it....!!!!

Note that i am the kindda of person that once go into bed...will authomatically snoozz of....sometime baru je bace bismikallahhummmmm.......ok dah bording trs to sleeping mode and only will wake up the next morning...and one more thing is that i rearly dream during my sleep... if org Melayu cakap mmg roh tu duk diam2 je...or if I got any dream that night i normally forget it the next morning just like that...

But today something trully wierd happened....not only i am dreaming...but I remember every single details of it till now and its kindda wierd sincerely.

After thinking about it what is the main reason thats stimulate that dream...I think I got the answer...its all because of this print out that keep me felt content before i go to bed last night...

Due to this i drempt about 3 different person....and the last one....................should i say this....what eva......I married Him...and the last image that I have is sumthing like nikah session and he help me to wear a cream scraft (coz that time somehow i wear a long white abaya + head cover only....n He kiss my forhead...and some background voice say finally she married to the right guy who complement her and the power to control her..and suddenly i wake up...and its bug me the rest of the day...arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

p/s: I dont want to get married now!!!!!.....finished my paper first pls...ok tonight command myself to dream about passing the exam will flying colours...and get and award for being the best student , make my family pround of me and working with a big prestigious company.....happy.....amin

# sorry if some people find it in appropriate for me to tell all this in a blog...but this is the only place i wil mention about this ya...bye

My 6th day...and 22 celsius and more

Ok today mark my 6th day of Syawal fasting...yea...raye!!!!....ok coz its special today breaking fast so semanggat buat mee kuah...eventhou byk ingredient yg tak de...as if i care.. take it as a challange....belasah la apa yg ada kat dapur...drop by kat ASDA buy pak choi and so call fresh shrimp...jalan...di sebabkan raya.....takkan tu je???...aku bermonolog sendiri...ni tgh study ni...kepala dok giat pikir apa lg yg best utk dijamu perut ni ,.....as compare utk aku pikir kenapa la pension fund IAS 19 ni kena divide to 2/3..why??..why???....yg sampai sekarang aku tak paham kenapa answer skem buat cam tu..aku tgk tarikh and carrying amount macam tak memberikan sebarang petunjuk pun......apakah???.....tak cukup dgn tu kenapa current liability pi less 11 million and campak kat non-current liability...argh...nak koyak question and answer skem aku belek...paper answer aku dah macam belacan masak lemak kot...ni yg aku tak suka ni....sorry for non accounting background it might be...apakah yg aku merapek ni???...abaikan...aku pun tgh cuba utk paham kan...Ya Allah kurniakanlah kefahaman kepada ku.... kurniakan lah ilmu pengetahuan yg berguna kepada ku agar dpt ku gunakan utk diri dan masyarakatku...amin.

Then tetiba tgh otak aku multi task...teringat la Apple crumble...sumpah aku tak igt cam na rasanya...maybe aku pernah jamah menatang ni time kat KL dulu....entah tak igt...so cam konon nak ade theme utk bukak posa cum raya aku ni...ok la...maybe sedap kot....buat...sbb terlalu mudah receipinya...how???.....cam main campak2 sugar, flour and butter...gaul2...kasi crumble...then potong apple...campak dalam loyang....bakar 350 degree 1 hour...nak detail kindly google...dah siap makan sekali dgn ais cream vanila...aku belasah choc je tadi sbb tu je yg ade sale kat ASDA...hhhahahahaaa...sedap jgk...maka tema tahun ni EAST meet WEST...mee kuah + apple crumble with choc ice cream..yum...yum...alhamdulillah.

This week Brits experiencing "Indian Summer".....panas gila ok....ptg tadi dah cecah 22 dgre celsius...tgk weather forcast...up till this weekend the heat gonna increase to 28 dgre cel k....maybe kalu kat Tanah Melayu apalah sgt dgn tempreture cam tu....chill la bro....suam2 kuku je tu....tp Tanah Melayu ade kipas+air cond....kat Westminister ade heater je....kipas pusing2 kuasa 5 tak wujud...argh....syukurla dgn nikmat tuhan...coz after this beb ko akan sejuk smpai Jan kot...ya manusia sggh cepat lupa pd nikmatnya...huhuhuhu ;P

Trafalgar Square Malaysian Night Market

Yea...its makan time again....but this time kena byr la...never mind...for good food I am in man....one of my friend informed me about this annual event at Trafalgar Square starting from 3pm up till the eve of friday..yea...obviously i am on board..arrived around 530pm...and subhannallah ramainya makhluk...ok before we start set on my mind what to eat...ok I will only be intrested to have Laksa Asam Penang and Coconut Drink...full stop!!!...but after 10 min of walk...i change my mind....to....anything that its hard for me to find the original food here and the one that is hard for me to cook due to scared of ingridient .....hahahhaaa...lame:P

Making 2 big lap around the place...then walla....the first dish ...Laksa Penang baby..with the Coconut drink...superlicious...yum..yum..

Yea...laksa Penang in London baby.....everthing was perfect...noted that the bowl if unique???...its from upih pinang....if you guys do not know how its looks like..... kindly google:)....its part of Pokok Pinang.....in my kampung my grandma used the upih to do Kipas tangan...n for me..during my childhood days...we used it as part of a game...called tarik upih...if u can imagine...its somting like pulling a trolly around the garden...maybe its not as exciting as playing X box or Knect...but its fun enough for us :)

And after that....roti canai...sate...hahahaa.....thank god i am fasting that day...so it is an excuss to eat more :P.....the truth is i am a big eater...lallalalala....i just cant stand it...living in the place where my daily food now are pizza, burger, sandwich etc....having Malysian food is something that I will not forgo just like that :p

Its a great night ....oh apart from food there performence...Gamelan...Ulik Mayang...some heritage song...n batik + songket  fashion show....i watch it once in a while coz most of my time are book by foods and chating with Malaysian friends that I meet there :)

p/s: Thank you Allah for this blessing...;)

Tak tahu nak ckp cam na...

Ok di sbbkan aku tak keras dgn my own right...padan la muka...selsema dari malam td kot...smpai skg tak habis2 lagi...nak study susah nak mampus...ni yg jenis meleleh tak henti2 punya stail...sorry if aku dah mengelikan korang....dah gi joging, sup panas...ginger drink...haram satu pun tak jalan. (T_T)

Reminder to myself...next time dok je jauh2...biar la org nak ckp aku anti sosial ke what eva....di sebbkan nak sgt sosial last night for 1 to 2 hours....ambik la habuan....1 hari tak selesa....tisu kotak atas meja yg penuh malam td dah ringan kot...stress!!!!!

Rewind....Mlm td punya ayat...u ade abg??...yes i do..y?...do they smoke???...yes...tu je aku jwb....Ptt aku habiskan ayat tersebut...mcm ni....but they do not smoke in front of me...simple word I put to one of my brother...I love you....but if you decided to kill ur self by inhaling toxin to ur body...be my guest...kill your self...but pls don't eva drag me along...i know i will eventually die...but definatelly not through Canser ok!!!

If I called them stupid they will be mad...common guys and girls your wasting your money...and evntually killing yourself with it...kang nanti kat akhirat bleh ke jwb...Allah tanya...mati sbb ape...lung cancer..sbb smoking...mmg ade high likellyhood utk trs kena interogate la sbb tak jaga amanah Dia kat dunia ni!!! ...do they really know what inside the cigar in the 1st place???....dont they aware that 2nd hand smoke have more toxin when it being relese in the air???http://www.cancer.org/Cancer/CancerCauses/TobaccoCancer/secondhand-smoke.....i think they know but just decide to ingnore the facts!!!!!....ok enough membebel...i know i am not perfect...but i am trying to be my level best in my life....

So as the conconclusion....if your smoker...ups to you...i never really care...but pls...pls..pls...i am
begging do not smoke in front of me...i cannot stand it!!!!!

p/s: Currently...still with tissue in my hand and bloody RED nose!!!!!!!

Byknya...

Ok this week dah start tengelam in student life...wake up..buku...tido pun with notes....eventhou exam will be in 3 months time...but now dah start feel the heat....subahannallah byknya nak study...hope i can intiqamah to continuesly being crazy with this student life...take it as a job...i am a workholic and i am dam gud in what i do...so same goes with this new title that i hold...with lowest pays eva...student...its an investment for a better future...insyallah.

I taught I am the craziest already struggling with this paper....amazingly there is another person who r more crazier than me....he can wake up at 4am just to start with the reading be4 entering the class...ok being jelous in the gud way ok...so need to be more better...more smart planning in study...so that i can gain the most in everything...pls pry for my success...amin :)


p/s: hope can be a better student and better Abb' to Him...:)

Forces of Nature

Opposites attract, chemicals react..When I look at you...Deserts need the rain, Fires feed the flame..Can't deny what's true...Can't help the way I feel...(Cuz you got me, yeah)....All these elements are real...They come from deep within me...I would move heaven and earth for this fire...For this ocean I'll fight for you....Let this emotional wind take us higher...Where there's nothing we can do...I love you...Yes, I love you...This power is greater.....Than the forces of nature

Notes that i feel sumthing weird when listening to this song...felt like sumthing scratching my heart....deep...very2 deep....evething come to my head....pain...laughter...pain...fullfilled...pain....pain....mend my own open wound....its still not heal yet i can assure you that....its can bleed when eva it want and feel like...sincerly i hate it...why should i wasted all this feeling toward sumthing/someone that never even acknowledge me...my world will turn 360 degree when you r around...my heart feel lighter every time when i am thinking about you...but the same joy is also the one that torn me appart...thats not the right word...its crash me into pieces...until now i can't even open this heart to anybody....i will run and closed the door shut tightly...i know its stupid...its been years...but i still can feel the pain...i remember crying all the way my driving from work and after work when every time i think about you..and do not know how to stop the tears trebling down....how i can break down almost anywhere everytime sumthing remind me of you...i never know how deep i am in love you....

Reminder to my self...how many hours of meditation...tahajjud done just to forget all the memories...Ya Allah I know you have better plan for me...i understand..but pls take away this feeling...i cant bare it anymore...i have a new life...i need to focus with my future and cherish what i have today...thank you...I still madly in love with you.

Mumbling by my self

Today there r no class...so today activity evolved around the house...cleaning, watching drama, study...n just breaking my fast for the 2nd day of Syawal...alhamdulillah everything went well...12 more days to go then :)

Hem....all the sudden teringin nak makan bihun sup daging yg best tu....hemm...kena belajar how to find the ingredient ni....i think tommorow lets go to Peckham...or nak go to Bayswater...tp jauh la plak....lets see how...if this craving start to enter my dream tonight it shows how bad i really want it..but if not we just wait la..hehehehee....but seriouslly i think its all because of puasa...coz normally only this time i think about food too much...hahahhaaa

One thing i notice my skin conditions....its getting dryer everday...and its not even witnter yet...huhuhuu...how on earth my body will react time witnter nanti....just pry for the best.

p/s : i am only making thing worst by start visualing how sedap bihun sup rusa at setiawangsa...hahhaaaa....anyway i love living alone but enjoy company of people :)