Excidently ever after...

Trying my level best to be happy and try to remind myself that how bless my life are.....
I am hurt thats why...i am lossing intrest in majority things that i do nowdays....i need to find the fire back...i need to find the exicidently ever after of mine....i need it...Ya Allah help me...please count the blessing that HE have give you:

1) I got my work
2) I got good housemate
3) Good cash flow
4) Great family..my brothers are among the best gift i eva have
5) Wonderful nephew n nieces
6) I can buy anything that i want
7) Beautiful skin
8) I got my health
9) Got my own ride
10) Saving
11) Giving the chance to continue my study

and best of all I got Allah that always by my side....how bless you r my dear :)

Love.....or friendship??????????

I been thinking about this thing a lot lately...and i been bombarded with the same question lately...i try very much to ignore it...but seriously iam getting sick of it...wateva...as i always say it....

Ok i just want to share sumthing here....

What is the difference between friendship and being in love with sumone?????
Is there a difference between it the 1st place???.....when u r my friend...i will love you for sure...coz if not iam just gonna ingnore you totally .......or you will notice that i may not what to talk to you at all in the 1st place....its hard to me...coz i seriously dont know how to hide my emotion...and i will always show it no matter what...i know...life is a journey...maybe along the way i may find the way to learn how to pretend...but seriously i have been trying to be less emotional too long...and that is certianly not who i am....be it...i just gonna be myself...if you find its hard to except it...i just felt sorry for you....


Let just come back to the whole point why i want to write in this very entry....what is the difference with friendship and love.....how do you know you love sumone or just want to be friends with him or her??????

I have a very difficult heart....it will keep on changing as the way it like...sumtime i even ask myself....why i do all these in the 1st place...????

We be for each other....
We laugh with each other...
We stay strong for each other....
We cry on to each other when we need sumone.....
We share the same type of music and movie...
We share the same type of obsession and hobby....

And we respect each other difference....




But....

I will always need to be the strong one....
I cant make it with out you....
I do not want to loose what we have now...
As the way i have loose you before....
It is a bless that i manage to get back what i have with you before....
I taught i can have the same thing with anyone alse...
You cant make everyone happy...
So be it...luv your self more compared to anything else in this world....
You deserved to be happy....and you are pefectly a complete person as your own....
HE love you...never forget that...and that love will never gonna change.....
Why you look for sumthing that is so unpredictable when you can have sumthing that is more solid, guarantee and safe....YOU are a beautiful, smart and attractive young women....all this gonna make you even wiser....never forget that :D

p/s: I decided to choose friendship over love...coz i just could not live without not having you in my life....you give me the balance that i always wanted....i thesures our friendship more compared to my love to you...and how happy iam now...:)

It 25 baby\(*.*)/

Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......................

Alhamdulliah......25 years.....how colourfull my life have been after 1/4 of century....achieving so much...be in the right track of my carrear life...just it like a roller coster ride that 24 7 in the most highest peak...and the lowest end...hahahhaaa...such an adrenaline rush...the way i always like it....luv it..the right word to used....

Grown soo much IQ, EQ and collecting so much expriences....life (work,study,family,friends etc)....are there anymore that still missing in my life????...no worries...Allah I am thankfull for all the gift that u have send me....and iam trying my level best to appreciate it....Thanks for always be by my side....and always be there when i need you...eventhough i always forget about you...I seek our forgiveness...and please help me to be a better person and become a more complete Abd to u......

Only one thing that still bothering me Allah.....and you know what is it.....please i will wait for it...maybe u want me to be prepared before you give it to me...i will try to see the hikmah from all of this....iam smiling....and please help me in becoming a better person....amin....and thank you for giving me the chance living in this beautiful world of yours...the best 25 years ever and i will not trade it with anything else....Thank you again file://(*.*)//

Eve heard????

Ever heard people say...when u love someone u need to tell that felling to that sumone when u felt it in the 1st place...if not eventually either you lost the chance or loose the interst or knowing that you will never got the 2nd chance...

Or ever heard...when you want to do sumthing big...think it hard...and then wait for 1 or 2 days...if you still felt the same thing as the day before..continue with it...if vice versa...be it...coz it never ment to be...

This is what i felt now...more on the 2nd part...which is good before i do all the unnecessary action and wasted it at the end of the day....thanks for making me realize...that iam better without you....and i deserve a better person....and i have the strenght saying that u are not my lover and yes you are only my friend...coz when u took my heart u took it all...when u give it back it felt appart....Thanks again...and i will keep the sweet memory that we have sorry wrong word to choose...i have to my self...thank you for making my life full with colours....

Decided

Ok after deliberating this issue quite sum time i have come to a conclusion....i gonna focus with my work and study right now...and as for the reward..i will do it on the new year celebration night...i want to start a new life...if -ve answer i will mourn about it for a while and then move on with it...but if the answer is +ve ....iam the happies person on earth...new year...new life...new beggining....lallallalalaa...so my focus and energy will be channel to the one thats need my priority right now...i need to be answer....no more waithing for sumthing that i keep on figuring out the answer...full stop...lalalallalala

LALALALALALALALLALALA

Yesssssza......i felt tp the top right now...ya with work+ study that are sooring to the max right now....i still manage to smile...hope to save it at least up to my exam...i seriouslly need this kind of mood..feltz so right and motivated...that is the most important thing..thanks all...and thanks Allah

Creating Mess in My Own Life

Hem....please i know i just creating a mess in my own life....well i just can't refrain my self is it?
I am not sure why all this are happening....dam it...so please...poeple will always regret sumting when the thing are out of their reach...am i talking about myself...daaa...so obvious...please i hate this kind of feeling.....so oldddddd....:P