My La la Land

Its been a while...i decided to be left alone for a while...lately there are lot of thing that pop up inside my head...a lot...

Let me introduce the person as A, B and C

There are people saying that if you want to forget sumone (A) try to find sumone else so u wont think the 1st person too much....is it?

Yea...maybe its true if that person (B) have the gifted ability....but not everybody(C) can replace the previous one(B)...for my case it become the other way around...it make me keep thinking of the person(B)...its not right...i know...but i cant help it...hahahaha pretty complecated right?

Let me simplifies it....i love A sooooooo much...he dont...to bad i learn the facts and B come in to my life without i realise it...it so different.....B make me totally forget A. So case closed with A....Thank you B :)

Then things happend..... i dont know where went wrong...ok la it just my deportments level are too high went i am with B....i become seeriosly high......it make me nearly manage to do everything that is impossible....i love it but to much from it also its not good for me.....when it +ve it good la...but when -ve thing become seriously ugly.....fine just things got caught up...maybe both of us do not know what we are felling ....so i step back just to see what will happend next....

To my amazement while i step back C come in to my life....ok fine let give C a try...no harm...but C make me realize how meaningfull B is to me....to meaningfull....i still try to give C a chance...he deserve it.....i learn from sumone if you want to know if that person is the one....try to picture u and that person in the future...can u do it???....i try with C...but seriuosly i cant..i just making thing worst...instead it make me building up future image of me with B....its bad...i know no need to tell...

Now i decided ...i need to be left alone...far away from A....done....B...such a hard thing to do....and C....i am sorry...its just its not fair for you.... because when iam with u i am still thinking a lot about B.....i need to give my self a chance in the 1st place...give me a chance to improve my self in so many area....everything is in Allah hands...amin :)

Ya Allah...

I felt so uneasy today...ok the ultimate reason would be result will come out today.....Ya Allah feverish....feverish...relex2....dah usaha...dah doa..tawakal...so relex k....plus i dont felt like going to work...it is becoz...the presurre is higher...people will always keep asking the question...have you checked on your result?....nak go to sleep pun gaya tak leh....huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu........Ya Allah let me pass both of my papers....Ya Allah let me pass both of my papersYa Allah let me pass both of my papersYa Allah let me pass both of my papersYa Allah let me pass both of my papersYa Allah let me pass both of my papersYa Allah let me pass both of my papersYa Allah let me pass both of my papersYa Allah let me pass both of my papersYa Allah let me pass both of my papersYa Allah let me pass both of my papersYa Allah let me pass both of my papersYa Allah let me pass both of my papersYa Allah let me pass both of my papersYa Allah let me pass both of my papersYa Allah let me pass both of my 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Auditor?????????

Hem...hari ni ada one of my junior...bdk VT asking me this question...out of the blues...Salehah...kalu tak jadi auditor nak jadi apa yek...aku cam malas nak jawab...sbb this boy kind of loyar buruk skit budaknya....byk benda ko leh buat apa...after i am trying to pass the question to my A2 to answer it...last2 i need to answer it jgk...simple its come back to ur own persoannality...ur interest and what you want for your long term goal and what you want...hahhahaha...simple to say; you need to have a very good reason why you want to be in this line...the work commitment is just another level of stress altogether...be prepared to sacrfice a lot along the way....hahahahha...however along the line u tend to learn where to find your balance point....

Sometime i seriously malas nak anwers when people me ask this question....why you are working so dam hard...believe me if iam being consider as workholic...there are a lot of other people that is much more crazyier than me....hahhahaha....i have my own reason why i let my self to be push and squeze in this line....i want this....when you do sumthing that you want you tend to be not really mind of doing it in the 1st place....hahhahahaha....sumthing i know a lot of people may not understand it. Its ok as long iam happy in what iam doing that what really matters...Allah have grant my wish to learned in the line that want....sumore getting the right type of client...great teammate......quite tolarate boss...hahahahahha....kind of bareble client ( coz i am dam gud in faking my feeling...i belive in 1 thing in work nothing is personnal its just business.....hahhahahaa) i am bless cant say more but very much thank you God....thank you so much.

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

I don't wanna lose you,
I don't wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And i don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But i don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Now i could never change youI don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes i may have hurt you
But i did not desert you
Maybe i just wanna have it allIt makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Superb Saturday

What a day...wake up early in the morning...have breakfast...move to bowling centre...play like small little kid...was so much fun...its like a mini reunion for our uni batch...seriouslly fun...after 1 year plus graduating...lots of thing have change...sum people come with wife...n got people also become couple...amazingly most of this thing happened after we all grad...thats call faith right..happy for them...

As for me...seeing long lost friends is the best part n people yg mmg always stay true to you...its been a while we are not having fun together...thanks guys....u know who u r....lots of contact manage to get...so people let used each other advantage for the gud things ya...hehehehehe...i.e : Mar...beware bebila je i will call u for the Philharmonic ticket..hehhehehe....for others for sure i will bug u guyz in work related matters...

Evening ...of course my badminton game...n at night making the day the ultimate day is hehhehehehe...manage to find time to cook myself a very yummy "Stim Fish"...huhuhuhuhuhu...dam gud....yeaaaaaaaaaa...and plus watching sumthing yg quite a while iam not watching is the Malay Drama...it was gud+funny+got a gud twist in the story..love it....hehehehehee...got to go...need to teman my housemate for McD...wow such n energy...i love myself n my life n my world...things a re become better n better n superb each day...thanks Allah for the such a wonderfull gift :)

S.P.C

I crawl to one of this website...talking about how to get and keep the right guy in to your life...simple receipe to do it is S.P.C...Sexy...Playfull...Caring....

1) If ur only SEXY...he will only want ur body
2) If ur only PLAYFULL...he will only be your friends
3) If ur only CARING....he wil only think ur his mother

So in order to get and keep him... women need to know the right mixture of the 3...ist?

quite funny but come to think of it...it might going to be true...another article that i read recently...man main sense are:

1) Sight
2) Touch
3) Heart


Hemm....i seriously wonder....but i gonna agreed to it...hahahahhaha :D

Thinking offfffffffff........................

I wonder... lately weather what i do is right or not??? there is no manual to refer to...so i guess as long as i felt good about it should it be OK ?????

I just want a better life...i am not gonna repet the same mistake again...what pass is pass...i should think about present time that logically the time frame that i live right now....take it as sumthing that i sould learn from...make mistake is ok...but just make sure do not do it agian k


Ok tonight i put a song that a bit pasrah sikit....huhuhuhuhuhu..."Soulmate"

Incompatible........
it don't matter though'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find
Is it possible
Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a Soulmate for everyone
Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyoneIf there's a soulmate for everyone
Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone