Its been a while...i decided to be left alone for a while...lately there are lot of thing that pop up inside my head...a lot...
Let me introduce the person as A, B and C
There are people saying that if you want to forget sumone (A) try to find sumone else so u wont think the 1st person too much....is it?
Yea...maybe its true if that person (B) have the gifted ability....but not everybody(C) can replace the previous one(B)...for my case it become the other way around...it make me keep thinking of the person(B)...its not right...i know...but i cant help it...hahahaha pretty complecated right?
Let me simplifies it....i love A sooooooo much...he dont...to bad i learn the facts and B come in to my life without i realise it...it so different.....B make me totally forget A. So case closed with A....Thank you B :)
Then things happend..... i dont know where went wrong...ok la it just my deportments level are too high went i am with B....i become seeriosly high......it make me nearly manage to do everything that is impossible....i love it but to much from it also its not good for me.....when it +ve it good la...but when -ve thing become seriously ugly.....fine just things got caught up...maybe both of us do not know what we are felling ....so i step back just to see what will happend next....
To my amazement while i step back C come in to my life....ok fine let give C a try...no harm...but C make me realize how meaningfull B is to me....to meaningfull....i still try to give C a chance...he deserve it.....i learn from sumone if you want to know if that person is the one....try to picture u and that person in the future...can u do it???....i try with C...but seriuosly i cant..i just making thing worst...instead it make me building up future image of me with B....its bad...i know no need to tell...
Now i decided ...i need to be left alone...far away from A....done....B...such a hard thing to do....and C....i am sorry...its just its not fair for you.... because when iam with u i am still thinking a lot about B.....i need to give my self a chance in the 1st place...give me a chance to improve my self in so many area....everything is in Allah hands...amin :)
wahhhh..."coz when i'm with him i am thinking of u..."
ReplyDeleteowh da ade "C" pulak ye...hurmmm
myb u r right..its not fair thinking of B when u r actually giving a chance to C..unfair to C..but he doesnt know dat..ngeee..
myb u r right..giving urself time to be alone..question is..how long?what kind of improvement u wana make?is anybody else affected (e.g C) when u give urself time to be alone? will this make him go away forever?
myb u r right..B is so great dat he changed ur life to best u ever experienced..however, things didnt went well..but it doesnt mean it will not goes well in future..anyhow, what matters is NOW..is it worth if still hanging with great memory / feeling with B? memory..hurmm..u noe the answer..
myb i'm not in the position to say anything..but this is juz my humble opinion..no hard feeling..hehe..
i understand its not easy to forget B or finding a "C" who can make u forget B like how B made u forget A...yes, we meet people like B in our life..keep the great memories with him..but give urself a chance by opening up to any "C"..open up urself to any "C"..opening up does not necessarily means dat u r making urself love "C" as a life partner..life is wonderful..we are surrounded by so many great and nice people who gives us different meaning of life..
u noe what..dont find a "C" who can make u forget B and A..B and A are different in their own way..find a "C" who can accept u the way u r..find a “C” who is special to u..the most important is that u can accept "C" s the way he is as well..A was history..B can B history as well,if u want..whatever great memories u had with B or A, it will stay as it was..
therefore, my dear fren, try to decide for the best, make effort to get the best for urself..then tawakkal to Him..sometimes its best to just go along with flow or let the time heal u..but again..if u noe what u want, what u shud do, why wait longer? u decide ur life..renung2kn..dan slmt beramal...peace~
I dont know what to say...really appreciate ur comment my dear :)...i start to develope sense of missing "C" ...since he is backing up due to what i have plan it so dam well..u know what i have done...its bad i know...i need to do it..coz i need to ask myself...i miss him becoz of what?...the norm that he give me or i have develope a feeling towards him?....
ReplyDeleteI know that the now i am missing the norm that i used to have..not more than that...so i will try to find "C"..or "D" or who ever it is...if "C" go away..fine it means that we r not ment to be together..period.
i tink "C" is not searching for a life partner yet..managed to dig dig dig...hehehe..
ReplyDeletehe is looking for frens..but if he finds one who suits to be his life partner, i tink he'll go on wit the person(whoever she is)..that's destiny..tings not necessary happen as wut he planned, rite? qada' n qadar..
my point is..don't worry abt "C"..he is not serious yet..i tink he is a planner, but he's not taking any action yet for the moment..ngeee~~
so..hv u found out whether u missing "C" o not?
Thanks beb for the taughtfull inside story about "C"...really appreciate it...i am glad actually...coz lately my relationship with "B" r blossoming again...no worries this time around i will make sure the complication that i have be4 would not happend again(prying hard)...i want to take thing easy this time round...taking steps that is safe for both of us..especially "me"...but sincerly i love this feelling right now...i miss it so much and i manage to get it back..thank god...it was the best felling for the moment...(opssss iam smiling to myself right now)... how happy iam without B need to do much... the whole point now i need to make myself a happy person...with or without any "C" in my life...:)
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