Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Out of Randomness...


Once a upon a time…
I sincerely brake to pieces ...shattered
Trying to pick up the pieces and working hard to patch it back to its original state…
In which I know I can’t
The imperfection created is part of the proof that I have survive another kind battle  

Time heals...as cliché as it may sound…I am now one of the witness
Do not ask me when it happens…it just does
All those memory, still stored but I guess it has been fully covered with something new
All those song that used to be so meaning full now felt so empty…

From far, I pray that Allah ease you as the way He has grant me…or maybe more
From you…..I have learned so much
Understand so many question, become more wise, poise and grateful 


Tuesday, July 24, 2012

16 days adventure...Part 1

Heemmm...welcome back to world of reality....been thinking how should i approach in tabulating the layout of my 16 days trip around Europe....should i do it chronologically or mix n match of stories..part by part??...ok let see what come out...how much i have the adrenalin to type..heheheee
   
8 countries - 16 days
  
Joining the budget tour organize by Kelana Convoy, comment...real budget to the max...minimum supervision but best of all great experience alhamdulillah.

What can i say...the experience gain is just out of my wildest dream. I can't thank Allah enough for this wonderful opportunity and rezeki...the county visited is just too beautiful subhanallah.

Recap :

Day 1 
London to Amsterdam 

Departed from Park Lane, London at 8am and once arrived the bus is nearly full, thus we only manage to get on the far end of the sit in the coach :P then travel down to Kentabury to pickup another 2 people...a couple who turn out to be the only married couple in the trip. Abg Andy and Kak Ina. Both are very lovely couple and very entertaining. 

Stop at the train station to get into undersea train that connect UK and Europe..such and experience and again buy something...hahhaa...what else card game...to fill in the time...and we'll play all the way in the bus...
 
Oh not to forget got my self a new book for the trip The Social Animal then we head to Belgium, and 1st stop P&J for Belgian chocolates! 

Then continue into Holland, we'll set up camp near Amsterdam. 1st night as been agreed by the other girls to set up a tent instead of cabin...yeaaa...such a wonderful experience...Great camping site...very2 clean place and very quite area except for 1 tent near us who party all night up till 5 am...in which i did not bother at all as once i am in the sleeping bag...straight away in the wonderland....just pity my other friends who keep on mumbling about it...  

Amsterdam and Volendam


After breakfast, we drive to the picturesque Dutch fishing and cheese village of Volendam. Before that stop at one of the local place to watch how cheese and dutch wooden shoes are being made. Then its start to rain, slowly but surely getting heavier each hours..then we walk around the village in the heavy rain looking for cheap goodies and seafood for lunch.

1 important facts about this place is that they are the expert in diamond cutting all over the world. As my pocket now label as student i can only watch the places...not dare to get in...as to avoid myself from sakit hati....hahahhaha :P And note that the village is actually on a the dam (barrier built along Holland to hold back sea water) and marvel at the fact that most of Holland is below sea level. 

Then we pose for a memorable picture by the windmills. Then head straight to the capital city of Hollad....Amsterdam. We took the ride in the canals and get a better understanding of the historical information about the place.

3 interesting facts :

1 ) Majority of the houses there is very high 
2 ) And most of it is till-ted style 
3) Each house have a hook on top of the house 

Reasons :

1 ) Majority of the houses there is very high ( Amsterdam historically always have flood in the old days)
2 ) And most of it is till-ted style ( they try to show that their house is bigger compared to others in a very subtle way as Catholic forbid them to be extravagant...i find it very amusing..really) 
3) Each house have a hook on top of the house ( on this part please refer to the fact no1...the hook can be used to transfer the furniture from the lower level to the higher one without much hassle...on one more important facts their window a super larger...the size is the same with their own door) 


Then we wonder around the city and nearly get into the red light district...in which we already make run out off it.
Historical information why Amsterdam have such a big and popular red district area compared to others is because the area is a famous port since the Medieval time till now...thus lots of ship will dork there and by saying that lot of sailor will go down at the area to find girls and smoke weed.

I am serious, weed are being sell openly there in the coffee house and clearly stated in the menu and customer can order and enjoy it in the open area. Their liberal thinking is just too much for me. Sex and pleasure is openly practice...they even have Sex museum openly wide for public.

As for the good thing about Amsterdam is that, there people the is very2 tall. The main transportation is Bicycle...the old version one...every where you see the people the a very slim. If a mother have 2 child the bicycle will be modified to fit the kids...and if they have pet..there will have very cute basket either in front or behind as their passenger. 

Oh their also have electric car everywhere, even you can rent that widely available it around the city park near the canals.

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Once a point of time....

Is it logical for someone that neva had period pain in all her adult life, got a very2 serious attack all the sudden ??....at ist taught it possible...1st day...painfull like hell...2nd day...vomitting...dizzy...pain in the lower abdoment in word can neva be describe...still cool...making my own hypothesis that its normal for period pain to be like that...thats is only the beginning

The next morning...lalalalaa....going to class so happy...because it revision day for my fava subjectn topic...deravative + hedging...hoyeee....morning class was superb...but after lunch everything down to the hill...keep going to the toilet back n forth...then around 3 i just cannot bare it anymore....maka menitis la air mata in the middle of the class...excusses my self...running to the hospital...thank you Ya Allah its just like 10 min walk to Guy Hospital...in front of the counter....trying to keep my composure...let the nurse know...then she ask me to go to St Thomas..reasons being...i cant really remember as my brain is focusing on the other thing....running again to the shuttle bus...

Just skip all the detail....i am being admitted to A&E Unit in St Thomas, 3 times pain killer...just mention it...atas, bawah semua kena sumbat....i wont give detail...the last one that works...morphin...afterwards...wow...still feel the pain but i am in cloud 9....lost...like flying...ooo....this is how it feel like...taught of not taking it...but my pain just unbareble...

Xray, blood test, urine test, CT scan, doctor consultation's...5 doctors i guess...as far that i can remember....from being admited to A&E to going back to Nurology at Guy's Hospital....the journey...is too tiring...even to tell it...i do not have the energy...

This is not the 1st time i am being admitted to the ward...2nd time alone....the 1st one once i am still in KL...again alone...Ya Allah how big is your Rahmah to me...you give me the courage to be able to overcoming it.....comment..mmg the professionalism is totally different...remind you when i was back in KL its private hospital...but here its public hospital...but the service i would say far batter off compared to Glanegels KL.

I felt so greatfull for having such an owsome doctor, nurses, radiologies, paramedic team and staff nurse...your service is truly amazing.

Even the sensitivity for me as a Muslim also been taken care accordingly.

Its true when Yusuf Al-Qardawi say...I see Muslim in the Western world...how i wish one day Malaysia will be like that :)

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

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Hemmm...exam is just around the corner...but today thats not the main theme of my post.

I dont know weather i should talk about it or not...but then agian..something need to be said.
Normally you will dream at night because he/she has been thinking about that matters too much during that day..thus the brain create an electron that playback the situation when our body is resting. Over this week as exam is around the conner, majority of my night is...what else...other than study...in hoping that during the night i can dream about it and drill the information into my brain...;)

Most of the time its working...coz thats how i remember thousand of client information especially loan account...back then..you can ask me up and down i know it...coz i even bring them to my dream...how workholic i used to be....and i even remember it until now :P

So hoping the same mechanism to be used for my subjects.
But then again, something really wierd happend....last 2 night i drempt about...i cant really remember the detail..but sumthing about how i dress...how i need to be more modest in my appearence....i thinked my late dad was in it...and my brother....make me thinked r my dressing not modest enough???...i remember after high scholl i made a to promise to myself that i will improve my akhlak more internally rather than outside....but then again its seems not enogh lately...

Maybe its kind a good reminder to me to try to improve on how i dress...moving on....

But then again last night dream is more serious...as usual i cant really remember the detail...but what i can remember is i am so near to sakaratul maut...i meet my mom in it.....

If all this are a sign...what is it??...i want to ask my brother....but i am worried he will flip out....i am so far away from my family....i dont want them to be worried about me.

I know i should not mention this to anybody, thus i choose to blog about it...for those that reading this please do not worry....thats what i told my self....just please pry for my safety, health and ofcourse the fact that i need to past my exam.

p/s: Maybe i stress my self too much...thats why all this wierd dream surface..;)

Monday, April 23, 2012

Oh my....

I am being a really lazy bone lately...onlys study like 2 hours only per day this weeks...r u crazy girl???...its only few more weeks to go...arghhhh....stress....i dont know where all my energy go....malas2 tahap gaban lately...everytime study cam kena buat cam activity budak2 tadika...baru leh focus...what happend???....i used to be person that can stay focus for hours n hours...only start to realise time past once my stomoch make a symphony of ochestra.....why???....why???...ist because i keep on skipping my jogging lately???...or should i blame the rain that make me felt so cold everytime???....which one???...need to find solution fast !!!!!...any suggestion so that i can get on the sadle of hardworking+deligent student back...i need to get over this papers asap...keep on telling myself that...but its not working at all...see i even have time to write my blong during my normal study time...this is bad...really bad!!!!

Really hope its only a sat back...will look for my focus back n need to be more stringent with my self...help me!!!...pry that i can give my level best in what i do!!!

I need to do justice for myself....period!!!

p/s: please help me pry n find solution to this madness!!!

Monday, April 16, 2012

Save life concert - HMV Appolo, London

From MASB (2010) to Stadium Shah Alam (2011) and the latest HMV Applo London (2012)...i have been given a chance to go to Maher Zain concert.

This year its been held at HMV Appolo Hammersmith London around 1 hour 20 min journey with bus. Its one way after Royal Albert Hall.

The concert was owsome because it manage to gather all Awekening artis under thier recording label.


Something different here is that this concert are for charity...just the same with Malaysia, but the big different is appart from the crowd, they made an auction session in the middle of programme.

What are they selling???....its a chance for people to select the amount of charity that they want to give to save an orphan in order for them to open a school for orphan at Bangladesh.

Its start with £10,000 per year spnsor commitment...then £5,000....£2,500....£1,000...and £350...each year...what really exciting is that the whole hall was full with excitement....i think for £1,000...around 70++ people raise they hand to commit to the pledge....

I ???...if you may ask??....was crying silently all the way...felt so warm with the level of philantropist activities .....actually the main reason is that i do not have money to give my part to this orphan....really heart breaking....at that particular of time i silently promise something to myself...hope one day i can fullfilled it insyallah....amen... :)

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Breakaway :)

My health is getting better....now i know what its need....a rest...and lots of walking n breathing clean fresh air....so greatfull...thank you Allah...

FYI...just come back from a trip to the coutry side of UK....the national park....Lake distric...nearly 600km ++ from London....

Drop by at Bermingham...Mancester....Kendal...few lakes n hills...Leeds and Nottingham....

Got the experince to drive in UK...got GOLF VW...thats the cheapest car...hahaha...was like...the car standard here same just like our kancil back in Malaysia...

Will try to get the picture from all the camera women n upload it for sharing...such a wonderfull experince...thanking Allah for such wonderfull chance given :)