Once a point of time....

Is it logical for someone that neva had period pain in all her adult life, got a very2 serious attack all the sudden ??....at ist taught it possible...1st day...painfull like hell...2nd day...vomitting...dizzy...pain in the lower abdoment in word can neva be describe...still cool...making my own hypothesis that its normal for period pain to be like that...thats is only the beginning

The next morning...lalalalaa....going to class so happy...because it revision day for my fava subjectn topic...deravative + hedging...hoyeee....morning class was superb...but after lunch everything down to the hill...keep going to the toilet back n forth...then around 3 i just cannot bare it anymore....maka menitis la air mata in the middle of the class...excusses my self...running to the hospital...thank you Ya Allah its just like 10 min walk to Guy Hospital...in front of the counter....trying to keep my composure...let the nurse know...then she ask me to go to St Thomas..reasons being...i cant really remember as my brain is focusing on the other thing....running again to the shuttle bus...

Just skip all the detail....i am being admitted to A&E Unit in St Thomas, 3 times pain killer...just mention it...atas, bawah semua kena sumbat....i wont give detail...the last one that works...morphin...afterwards...wow...still feel the pain but i am in cloud 9....lost...like flying...ooo....this is how it feel like...taught of not taking it...but my pain just unbareble...

Xray, blood test, urine test, CT scan, doctor consultation's...5 doctors i guess...as far that i can remember....from being admited to A&E to going back to Nurology at Guy's Hospital....the journey...is too tiring...even to tell it...i do not have the energy...

This is not the 1st time i am being admitted to the ward...2nd time alone....the 1st one once i am still in KL...again alone...Ya Allah how big is your Rahmah to me...you give me the courage to be able to overcoming it.....comment..mmg the professionalism is totally different...remind you when i was back in KL its private hospital...but here its public hospital...but the service i would say far batter off compared to Glanegels KL.

I felt so greatfull for having such an owsome doctor, nurses, radiologies, paramedic team and staff nurse...your service is truly amazing.

Even the sensitivity for me as a Muslim also been taken care accordingly.

Its true when Yusuf Al-Qardawi say...I see Muslim in the Western world...how i wish one day Malaysia will be like that :)

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Hemmm...exam is just around the corner...but today thats not the main theme of my post.

I dont know weather i should talk about it or not...but then agian..something need to be said.
Normally you will dream at night because he/she has been thinking about that matters too much during that day..thus the brain create an electron that playback the situation when our body is resting. Over this week as exam is around the conner, majority of my night is...what else...other than study...in hoping that during the night i can dream about it and drill the information into my brain...;)

Most of the time its working...coz thats how i remember thousand of client information especially loan account...back then..you can ask me up and down i know it...coz i even bring them to my dream...how workholic i used to be....and i even remember it until now :P

So hoping the same mechanism to be used for my subjects.

But then again, something really wierd happend....last 2 night i drempt about...i cant really remember the detail..but sumthing about how i dress...how i need to be more modest in my appearence....i thinked my late dad was in it...and my brother....make me thinked r my dressing not modest enough???...i remember after high scholl i made a to promise to myself that i will improve my akhlak more internally rather than outside....but then again its seems not enogh lately...

Maybe its kind a good reminder to me to try to improve on how i dress...moving on....

But then again last night dream is more serious...as usual i cant really remember the detail...but what i can remember is i am so near to sakaratul maut...i meet my mom in it.....

If all this are a sign...what is it??...i want to ask my brother....but i am worried he will flip out....i am so far away from my family....i dont want them to be worried about me.

I know i should not mention this to anybody, thus i choose to blog about it...for those that reading this please do not worry....thats what i told my self....just please pry for my safety, health and ofcourse the fact that i need to past my exam.

p/s: Maybe i stress my self too much...thats why all this wierd dream surface..;)

Oh my....

I am being a really lazy bone lately...onlys study like 2 hours only per day this weeks...r u crazy girl???...its only few more weeks to go...arghhhh....stress....i dont know where all my energy go....malas2 tahap gaban lately...everytime study cam kena buat cam activity budak2 tadika...baru leh focus...what happend???....i used to be person that can stay focus for hours n hours...only start to realise time past once my stomoch make a symphony of ochestra.....why???....why???...ist because i keep on skipping my jogging lately???...or should i blame the rain that make me felt so cold everytime???....which one???...need to find solution fast !!!!!...any suggestion so that i can get on the sadle of hardworking+deligent student back...i need to get over this papers asap...keep on telling myself that...but its not working at all...see i even have time to write my blong during my normal study time...this is bad...really bad!!!!

Really hope its only a sat back...will look for my focus back n need to be more stringent with my self...help me!!!...pry that i can give my level best in what i do!!!

I need to do justice for myself....period!!!

p/s: please help me pry n find solution to this madness!!!

Save life concert - HMV Appolo, London

From MASB (2010) to Stadium Shah Alam (2011) and the latest HMV Applo London (2012)...i have been given a chance to go to Maher Zain concert.

This year its been held at HMV Appolo Hammersmith London around 1 hour 20 min journey with bus. Its one way after Royal Albert Hall.

The concert was owsome because it manage to gather all Awekening artis under thier recording label.

Something different here is that this concert are for charity...just the same with Malaysia, but the big different is appart from the crowd, they made an auction session in the middle of programme.

What are they selling???....its a chance for people to select the amount of charity that they want to give to save an orphan in order for them to open a school for orphan at Bangladesh.

Its start with £10,000 per year spnsor commitment...then £5,000....£2,500....£1,000...and £350...each year...what really exciting is that the whole hall was full with excitement....i think for £1,000...around 70++ people raise they hand to commit to the pledge....

I ???...if you may ask??....was crying silently all the way...felt so warm with the level of philantropist activities .....actually the main reason is that i do not have money to give my part to this orphan....really heart breaking....at that particular of time i silently promise something to myself...hope one day i can fullfilled it insyallah....amen... :)

Breakaway :)

My health is getting better....now i know what its need....a rest...and lots of walking n breathing clean fresh air....so greatfull...thank you Allah...

FYI...just come back from a trip to the coutry side of UK....the national park....Lake distric...nearly 600km ++ from London....

Drop by at Bermingham...Mancester....Kendal...few lakes n hills...Leeds and Nottingham....

Got the experince to drive in UK...got GOLF VW...thats the cheapest car...hahaha...was like...the car standard here same just like our kancil back in Malaysia...

Will try to get the picture from all the camera women n upload it for sharing...such a wonderfull experince...thanking Allah for such wonderfull chance given :)

hemmm...

I know i should be writing the edin part 2 n 3...actually i have do it...half way...WIP...its in the draft section...not feeling like it...just be patient with me...my tantrum up hill right now...too many things in my head...

Oh just wanna highlight one point...in the wilderness of studing the menimbun material for my papers...my head are crunching too many thing...i dont like it at all...warghhh...benci betul when i come to this state...dear pls...do it one by one...dont be in the rush...take it easy...try to learn to dance in the storm ok...n enjoy it ;)

Just remember all the good thing that He has give to you for the past week...a lot right??...so why should you only look at the thing that He do not give???....only give you stress and unsatisfaction k...your life is being written by Allah...He have a great plan for you...be paitent...n strive harder...keep on crushing the wall...it will come down to pieces one day...put enough pressure to it...it will happend....you can do it!!!!

Among the many more reason why my health down the hill lately...1. Keep on skipping excersise 2. Stress 3. The happy hormone is not produce enough...need to force my self to go to park tommorow!!!!!

Edinburgh - Part 1

Truth be told my mission to Edin byk betul halangannya...start with all the tiny thing to the big one...hahhaa...after my friend told me that we got 1 week off from class...i say ok...i just join you guys...only to be inform letter that i have classes that week...wah pain to the ass man...coz i am the one that plann all the journey...ecxept booking the train ticket n hotel...so sad at 1st give my friend the copy of my detail artinery plan yg bersusah payah aku buat...dalam hati..its ok not my rezeki i guess...dalam pada dok mencari org refill my seat sampai weekendnya diaorg ckp tak de sapa yg bleh pegi on the date...and the same day i got email from college mention that my class has been reshedule...omg...alhamdulillah...He has plan it all so well for me...hoyeeee...so Edin here i come :)

3 words that i can simply decribe Edin PANORAMIC, SMALL and HISTORIC
 
Day 1 -

Wake up at 4 am and get to King Cross St Pancras Station...with half eye open...dam London dah busy with people at this hour as the bus that we take is full house...

Train journey approximately 4 1/2 hours...view..breathless...mixture of highland, valley, biri2 and ocean baby.

Arrived...start walking to find the central mosque of Edin and have nasik beriani ori with lamb...dasar perut melayu...gi jejauh pun carik nasi...1/2 hour walking and then we notice the new building of Edin University...wow...then we got to know yang Edin Uni is cosist of half of the city...the building scarted around in the city itself...the Medical School looks like Hogwarts man...so cool...

Pergi menyesatkan diri lagi...sbb terpesona dgn all the flowers...smpai tersesat to the Medow...jauh sgt  pergi tu...hehehee...

Then we go back to the hotel dah hilang arah...hahaha...all the sudden a guys tegur n help us out and say he's working at Glasgow Uni and very familir with Malaysian n the guys with him sumpah muka melayu but he is Thailand...so greatfull...then checked in and to our surprise we got 4 beds...the receptionist say its our lucky day...maybe coz its weekdays and not busy seasons yet...

Then continue menyesatkan diri.. at 1st i tought its a short cut...but in the end its a long cut to the Calton Hill...hahhaha...nak habis nyawa...sbb on that day we have climb 2 steap road time sesat cari the centra mosque...kesihan my friend...time ni la i can feel the energy of excersing but still aku kalah dgn old couple infornt of me yg lagi laju mendaki...hebat btl...i bet they age around 60 plus...arghhhh...how come??....kena byk lagi improve la nampaknya...hahhahaa

 But when we reach to the top...its worthed...dam its soo beautiful n breathless...so green...n the bonus part can see the ocean 180 degree...felt like on the top of the world...2 hours speed to go around the hill yg kecik je sebenarnya...but we take our own sweet time enjoying each conner of the hill...hheheeehhee...

And dasar perangai Kampung girl sejati semua benda aku nak buat bergolek, memanjat sesuka hati ku...felt so fresh..can lompat2...

On the above picture are among the 2 iconic monuments lays on top of the hill....the left one is the observatory...and the right one they try to imitate the building at Athens...tp kenapa ada tiang ja???..kalu korang terfikir???...notes this hill bkn rendah...agak parit jgk utk didaki....then how la benda tu wujud??....ikt story org2 Edin they used human labour n setiap kali siap 1 tiang 1 celebration will be done...by the time the 8th piling done the owner dah tak dak duit....mengong...show how pour financial decision making done...

Due to my friend request we go back to tempat we sesat at 1st...St Paul square...sbb nak tgk live exhabition...layan...unique...its involve all the micro picture, medical and NASA collectio...then buy dinner....bread n salad for me...felt so fresh...tp kaki dah start sakit yg amat....

Near to Maghrib we go back to the hotel...nice..watch tv...take bath..solat...then aku tgk 2 org dah tergolek atas katil...

So aku pun join sekali lepas penat tgk tv...around 9 plus dlm mata tertutup aku bebel kat diorg...wanna go out or not???...my feet is still kiling me...if u girls wanna go out wake me up....then aku dah tak sedar apa yg diaorg bebel balik...hahahahaaa....sampai la subuhhhhh