Life time experince....

For the 1st time in my life i have been admitted in the hospital...its all due to my awfull back pain....after going back from work on tuesday night....drop by to 1 of the 24hours clinic...after talking to the doctor...he suggest me to go to specialist the next day....coz the pain have come back few time already....just to be sure thats everything is ok....cool i need to comfort myself...that nite i just depends on annerex....then on the very morning go see specialist...that time the pain seriously give me hell....just to drive from my house to Pusrawi is already a huge challnge...still cool...but i nearly loose my patient when i can't even put my bag on my shoulder...wth...this is too much....after futher discussion with Doc he suggest for me to be warded...OML....ok....during the stay....do few fisio session to reduce the pain....n the most scary part is the MRI session....the session is to dam long....n the wierd sound comming from the machine during the session is seriously to wierd....n the space in side it...just felt like it inside the coffin....

The next day...got the MRI result...hemmmmmm.....one of the disc in my spine between L4 + L5 have experince a traumatise effect..known as posterolateral prolapsed or also known as disc desiccation and bulging....the bone is dammm dark from the MRI image...plus between the L3+L4 there is a sign of sociolosis...hhahhaa..hope i spell it right...it means it got deterioration effect...wth...iam 25 years old for goodness sake...anyway iam luckt coz therw is no major surgery needed...depend on medication +fisiotherapy session....

Now....just got home leave....relex...but the thing is the awfull pain+stiffness are comming back....signnnnnnnnnnn ~~~~~~~~~~

I am Backkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its been a while not having a very clear + vivid image of who + what I want in life….feels so great. Will make it happened no matter what, will finished my ACCA in 2011 period… a path that already be locked.
The matters off getting married?????....I need to put it next to my passenger seat for a while…. Allah had created each one of us in this world with a purpose….and I have found mine…and He has planned everything so well…will used it to max….Nobody can put me down + tear my world apart…coz I am back…stronger+bolder….a fighter never give up...they just c the hurdel as sumthing that will make them become a better person....love ur self, ur family and stay true to ur true friends...make sure u become a better person inside+outside each day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeaaaaaaaaa ….Exam dah habis (^_^)v

Alhamdulillah selesai jgk my exam….leganya Allah saja la yg tahu…so skg leh focus dgn kerja and my novel…yeaa…my target hopefully tercapai each month 1 book….hope Tiger Bank job this year tak la sakit cam last year…amin….my next novel Remember Me??? By Sophie Kinsella…for those yg mmg layan Shopaholics series will be familiar with her work…ok br page 6…hahhahaha…mari kita mula kan bulan Rejab yg lebih productive….tahaajut yek….dah gi tido…;P

Eh lupa plak...target lagi 1...photoshot for this month is about my obsession...kucing2...cat2...lalalaa..

Hope will managed to influence few people to tag along for the next photoshoot....gi reramai br la best...klau tak de sapa nak ikt pun ok la...leh jgk lebih mengenali diri ini dgn lebih baik....asyik nak dgn org pun payah jgk...u will end up to be a self centered person plak nanti...anyway remember u want to be happy...just choose to be happy ok...i luv u...never forget that ;)

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Seriously I didn’t meant to felt this way…but adakah aku ni dah tak berapa betul already when knowing sumone is hurt….I smile quietly…then I ask myself…why I am turning to be this freak???...u r a compassionate and loving person…don’t eva forget that…u just love people the way they r….that’s all… when I think about it….it’s not really the issue of I am happy or what so eva….knowing that u r hurt….it felt like the wheel have start to rolling….now its ur turn to feel what i have gone through......I have hurt so much during the process…too much…u never really think how much u have break my heart to million pieces…it’s ok I mend it myself and with the help of people that still love unconditionally….thank u…u know who u r (^_^)…..don’t eva say it is not the right time for u to be hurt…common have u forget what is the time when u hurt me???....there will be no right time for anything or everything…..u have make it clear to me that u don’t what me in your life and do not want me to disturb u (if u forget I still have the prove)…common u don’t know how well I can do that…I am just granting ur one last wish….adios amigossss~~~~~~

♥♥.......Long Overdue Promise ....♥♥

This entry is dedicated to one of my best gf in Uni...knowing her since matric and graduated together in our beloved Garden of Knowledge and Virtues....before hand sorry aku just manage to touchup here n there je...coz cramp with my exam...heheheeee....thanks for trusting me to mess up with ur engagement pic...say cheeeeeeeeessssssss.....

Him ♥ Her

Lucky Soul

The Moment

The Event

The Family

The Crazy Friends

With Her

And finally...i know for those poeple that went for Qyah E Day must be wondering....am i forgotting the one and most controversial pic....no worries i do remember girlssssssss..........hahhahahaaa....presenting the most "DesPerATe Pic"....ok bukan aku sesaja tulis k..i do remember the tuan badan yg ckp ayat ni ok....xoxoxoxo...u know u luv me....muahhhhhhh :)

"The DesPerATe "

ATWI 80 Datess?????????

After nearly a month try to finished my recent novel...it’s finally comes to the end....title as “Around the World in 80 Dates”.....by Jennifer Cox....bought it with one of my senior from my workplace in one of the MPH sales …..truly fascinating and touching....every page is full with excitement....the intro...climax and closure are very well written....
Apart from that what I really like about the book is that she truly have give me a new perspective about finding the soul mate of my life....a hard work and believing in faith is the basic formula of finding him out there....the way she describe it when she felt in love...he makes me felt deeply beautiful (inside + outside…the feeling of grateful n having my life not only correlated with only pile of worksssssssss )...something that I almost forgot how it feel like...from the last relationship that broke me down to pieces...nvm...I have learned a lot from it....it make me become more wiser...sincerely thanks...
She found her soul mate in her #55 dates...and surprisingly the second soul mate on her #76 dates...how can she be so lucky?????....she even tries to rationalize what had happened...is there a formula to find ur soul mate....1 in every 55 and 2 in every 76 or maybe 3 in 100????....( got it???...hahhaaa)......a well written novel n most importantly it's a good reminder to myself that I will never give up on finding my soul mate....I know I will meet him one day....and the one that I am willing to take the risk with ….how???? n when????.... let the faith and Allah arrange it for me...I will work on by continuously improving myself and will always be aware of the sign of my soul mate....u will know it once u meet them.....everything will felt just right....hope one fine day I will have the opportunity to felt that way.....

p/s: Currently listening to Paramore "The Only Exception" (^_^)v

Layout...lalallaaa

Sesgt happy dgn layout br ni...eventough aku tahu there are no homosapien that reading this blog...that is much better sbb most of my entry are more related for me to channel my feeling...lallalala...happy+sad+excited+frustrated+hope..etc..etc...

Why i like this particular entry eventhough it is not my 1st choice...to be honest i like the colour.....blue...entah kenapa after pink without i notice it....my things byk yg colour baby blue ni....my dress pun dah berlungguk dgn colour ni lately...its ok i love it...hehehehee (^_^)...

The 2nd reason is that, the cartoon is actually looking at the mirror....looking deep in herself...n in thinking mood...such a reflection of myself...hehehheee....love it...cant say more....hhehehe...tata ;)