Layout...lalallaaa

Sesgt happy dgn layout br ni...eventough aku tahu there are no homosapien that reading this blog...that is much better sbb most of my entry are more related for me to channel my feeling...lallalala...happy+sad+excited+frustrated+hope..etc..etc...

Why i like this particular entry eventhough it is not my 1st choice...to be honest i like the colour.....blue...entah kenapa after pink without i notice it....my things byk yg colour baby blue ni....my dress pun dah berlungguk dgn colour ni lately...its ok i love it...hehehehee (^_^)...

The 2nd reason is that, the cartoon is actually looking at the mirror....looking deep in herself...n in thinking mood...such a reflection of myself...hehehheee....love it...cant say more....hhehehe...tata ;)

My Anak2...:D

Lets talk about about my anak2..to be exsact anak2 buah ku :)...i dont have kids yet...will do when time comes..i guess Allah decide not to give me rezeki at that area yet..no rush...:)...when i go back to my hometown recentlly kindda lama sikit la as compared to the previous2 one...3 hari...n all the 3 days mmg dok static kat umah...coz be4 this a have spend almost majority of my holiday time with my bro...so skg dia dah tak dak...balik kampung sengsorang je la this time around...
Lets come back to the main point...i wanna talk about one of my nephew...we call him Iwan...Muhammad Ikhwan Naufal...he just 10 yrs old....but very2 smart...he love cats too much...i know majority of my family mambers r cats lover...but Iwan ni...mmg gila kucing to the max...n all the cat pun love him too much...balik je sekolah sure all the catz will run to him...ptg2 he will tido with all the cat taking nap on the bed ok...hari2 la my sister in law akan mengamuk sbb dah kotorkan cadar..yg tak tahan nya...tido ngan kipas tu...siap pusing2kan the fan to ensure all the catz kena angin fan tu ok...i found it very amusing :D....as boys normal la his favorte activity playing games.....24 hours pun tak pe...hahhahaha
One more thing yg aku notice he like to draw...i think most of us love drawing when we r young...aku pun still dok melukis lagi especially time tgh bengang sure entah apa2 yg aku akan lukis...depends dgn apa yg aku marah n skt hati time tu la...cam mengalir je kemarahan aku kat picture tu...ok...ok come back to my nephew story....one fine evening while aku dok melayan kucing2 kat hall my home aku perasan Iwan dok asyik dgn sumthing kat one side of the house so as usual being aunty yg suka kacau my anak2 buah...aku gi la menyibuk...he was having fun melukis...then aku notice sumthing on his side byk gila A4 paper...bila aku tgk...rupa2 dia tgh buat comic....ADVANCE BLASTER....picture frame by frame ok...siap dialog lagi....i am impress...he was having soo much fun with it....when i am reading it...the comic already on it 45 page....aku masih kagum dgn anak sedara aku sorang ni....gigih :)...
So skg ni aku tgh dok mencari painting book yg ajar about comic drawing so that can help Iwan with his drawing ;D.....

~~~~ New Air ~~~~

Get away from the hustle n bustle of my life n focus it to sumthing alse was soo much rewarding...great gatewat that i really2 needed...full of stories happay majority of it like 98% of it....just what iam looking for :p

Will update the story later ya...(^_^)v

Home????

The conversation will always start like this….where are u come from???...you are not from local right…yes I am not….how should I put it…I am from Perak I guess…born there…then they will ask this..why your plate number starts with P??...i taught your are coming from Penang???....n you always say you are going shopping n playing bowling in Penang(normally this kindda of person will only hear few stories from me..coz lately i always have the feeling just keep quite when am in the crowd...which is very diff of who iam few years back)…..long story cut short…I was born n even finished my education in Perak..but nowadays I rarely going back to my home town….my mum grave is at Penang while my dad is in Perak…so I need to travel to both land to be fair.
Then when its was long holiday…n when everybody was so excited of going back to their hometown…I will neva really bother about it…not going back this holiday?????....i will like…stare at them…n politely smile n say no I am not. Nowadays I only go back if sumthing important happened in my hometown..wedding or kenduri or sumbody close to our family died…that’s all..
Call me selfish what so eva…most of other people will never understand what I need to go through…nobody to count on except myself…so why bother what other’s would say…sorry I think I am being built to be a heartless person…I am too good to be a mean person… soredemo...kimi wo zuto….

Doushite...

Doushite...
Kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to omotteta noni
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau mi
Doushite...
Kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou?
Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi
Afuredasu kotobaWakatteta noni
Mou todokanai
Hajimete deatta sono hi kara
Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shittanda
Amari ni shizen ni tokekonde shimatta futari
Doko ni iku nori mo issho de
kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de
Bokura wa futari de otonani natte kita
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi
Doushite...
Kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to omotteta noni
Mou kanawanai
Tokubetsuna imi wo motsu kyou wo
Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo
Kireina sugata de kami sama ni chikatteru,
kimi wo Boku janai hito no tonari de
Shukufuku sarateru sugata wo
Boku wa douyatte miokureba ii no darou?
Mou doushite... Kimi ga suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Ano koro no bokura no koto
Mou modorenai
Kangaeta
Modorenai...kangaeta
Doushite...
Kimi no te wo tsukami ubaenakattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wa zuttoBoku no yoko ni iru hazu datta
Sono mama nii
Soredemo kimi ga boku no soba nara to itte mo
Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru kotoTada negatteru
Tatoe sore ga donna na sabishikute mo
Setsunakute mo

Doshiete?????

I have a lot of question lately….n Allah has choose to test me with lotz of things in the same time to.

Should I question it in the first place????....better not…u can’t say that u are HIS abb without being tested by HIM right?
Just don’t look at the things that HE has test you with…just look at all the other beautiful thing that HE has shower you with…so many right????...so just look at the +ve thing only….n focus on the good thing that happened in your life ok!!!!!!

Try to enjoy the life that have been granted to you….gud or bad…just put a smile in everything that happened….things always happened for a reason…remember that always…..” watashi wa, anata wo aishi te masu”

When I was Young

As the title when I was young …I will always have conversation with my mom about almost every things that happened to me…same goes with her…till the day she died…28 Jan 2008….
In my early life as a teenages…my mom always talks about her conversation that she have with her friends…n I will always listen to her profoundly…she got few girlfriends that have a daughter that is the same age with me…to be frank it about 3 or 4 of them…she always say that this girl know how to cook..know how to sew..how rajin there r in the kitchen helping they mom….how pretty they r….how smart the girls r…..gud here n there…hhahaha
I never really bother about it….but I still remember one weekend when she was talking about one of the girls know how to bake cake….i spontaneously say this….”mak…Kak Yah (that’s is how I refer myself ) Tanya sikit boleh????....time kengkawan mak dok bercerita n being proud of their daughter apa yg mak cerita pasal anak dara mak sorang ni????....then tak sempat she say anything…I say this to her….kesian kat mak kan..…tak de benda yg boleh mak nak banggakan pasal anak mak sorang ni….masak tak reti…menjahit tak pandai…kat sekolah pun biasa2 ja…plus kengkadang tu lebih malas dr rajinnya kan????.....my mom just being quite….not expecting that something like that will be coming from me kot…(i know her main intention...just to share her story with me) .....hahahaha…then I still remember telling this to her…..insyallah mak…doa2 la anak mak ni jd rajin sikit…so that nanti bila kengkawan mak dok being proud with their daughter u can join them too :D
Starting from that day without I really realizing it…I am growing drastically….not really sure whether its a change of attitude or it is memang the effect of my mom doa….I slowly but rapidly changing….become more rajin…passionate with what I do…getting to a better school…getting better grade….i am sitting in the 5% top range in school n I get the most awards in my final year in school and she manage to attend n get congratz from my teachers for having such a brilliant daughter like me … it think I did make her proud …;0
Next I start to become such a well rounded girl….smart+pretty+strong+rich+a gud abb….in everything that I do I will always ask this…how its gonna effect my mom????....r she gonna be proud of me????....i always have this dream of migrating to overseas….to the extent of even teaching my mom how to speak English…she is very2 smart …she manage to understand when I communicate with her n respond in several words in Mat Salleh….hahhahaa…..so much fun…I always keep remanding her that she need to learned as much of English words that she can coz I will bring her along when am migrating and I want her to enjoy the world as much that I do..:)
Now she has gone….n I still have dream to migrate…(working hard to make it true)….things happened for a reason….Ya Allah kabulkan dan permudahkan la perjalanan hambamu ini…n Mak in what eva I do I will always gonna make sure you will be proud of me…Insyallah…