Secret laaaa sgt.....

Olla....lots of thigs happend....so let just do a summary about it:

1) I felt down....swelling foot+spring the ankel....worried to much about it coz i cannot walk and due to my back problem...get x-ray checked and mc 4 days...4 days staying at home doing notting except sitting on the couch and bed...the most excrution days of my life....so next time when people ask what do u hate the most in ur life...is doing nothing at all in a day...really hate it (at this point of time i realize how workholic i am)...nvm..
2) Meeting with the girls..coz one of the gf r getting married soon (technically she already someone wife..just left with the reception...happy for her...but I decided with another gf to go to the husband side instead of her's..due to...i have my own lame excuses...(obviuosly work lor)
3)Talking about work...started new engangment...highlight of my every year work life in the firm...Tiger Bank...oh ya take note that...my previous job r not end yet ya...so expected to jugle the work again!!!!

Oh the highlight of everything...i have spill out my long keep secret...to a few people...for people that know me personally...i am the kind that prefer to keep everything to myself...n only spill it out when i think it is important....but sumhow...yesterday the story manage to find way to explode at the most unexpected place....at my firm round table....what the hell...means all the big bosses know about it already with all the details...dam it...how on earth it happend?....lesson to be learned...I rank my firm gossiping ability as the best internet server ever existed in this world.....give 10++ star to it...for managing to dig my well keep story...now i only looking at the good thing...means i only need less time to explain to my Director y i need to left him....try my best to left this firm gracefully and my level best not to burn any brigde that i have here...in the 1st place..do i have one???.....ok i admit it i consider my self lucky as i felt there is someone that keeping me safe and helping me to stay a float at this place eventough in reality i am swimming alone in this big+turbulance ocean....

Oh ya...i got my IELTS result...alhamdulillah... :) .....so now just waiting for the offical letter to come in...pry to Allah it will go smoothly....

Lesson learned....eventhough we always heard this...but now i experince it myself...its a whole new way to see and embrace it...Allah will always grant our prayer...but when he does not...it means He have a better planned for us....AMIN.

p/s: This week task...how to improve my right brain ability...means lots of thing will be done by my other hand...:)

Everything

Ok actulally there are lots of work to do...but all the thing are pending from client + bosses...
So try to enjoy the time i have efficently...

Kononnya target to fast in Rejab 16 days..let see how many days I can achive....as per to date just 1 day only...LOL..( due to pg td perut gedik wanna eat nasik lemak udang yg delicous nak mampus tu)....ok setan !!!...esk need to continue again...hopefully i can steadfast..huhuuhu...

Left with 75 more days before my new life start..approximately 2.5 months to go. Lots of thing to sattle before hand:

1) To get enough money
2) To let go my WRB
3) T0 let go all my household with the best price $$$ (my beloved 42HD+sofa+dinning table+kithcen...etc..etc) never notice i have so much stuff...hoohohohohohohooo
4) To sattle with my landloard
5) To get new lappy
6) To get in shape a bit as i have gain significant weight for the past 1 month...(hahhaha...among the more reason to fast this month...huhuhuh)
7) To clear up my wardrobe as I may need new kind of clothes

Hope thats all.....i need to do all this while jugling with my work....Ya Allah permudahkanlah...Amin

One Wish Fullfilled...:)

Long awaited need ( 2 months plus).....at last same brand again...hahhaaa

p/s: Seems like i develope a loyalty toward the same brand already......without noticing it

New Range for Esprit - White Silicon Vanity

I am leaving

JOY WILLIAMS - IF YOU WANNA GO

One more time sitting in a silent stare, and I'm the only one that's here,Let's just get it all out, Gimme every single word, even if it's gonna hurt... Cuz too many nights falling asleep,with all of these doubts stuck in between us,being polite is getting us nowhere now...

So if you wanna stay, just stay if you wanna go, if you wanna go just go So if you wanna stay, just stay if you wanna go,if you wanna go just go go far away, go far away...

So let's just fight maybe you could find some tears,and I could feel something real again you and i know we need to figure this out,tell me is it too late now...

Cuz too many nights falling asleep with all of these doubts stuck in between us,being polite is getting us nowhere now...

So if you wanna stay, just stay if you wanna go, if you wanna go just go ,So if you wanna stay, just stay if you wanna go, if you wanna go just go go far away, go far away...
We built too much just to stand and watch it fall apart... It hurts too much just to stay the way we are...

So if you wanna stay,just stay if you wanna go,if you wanna go just go So if you wanna stay, just stay if you wanna go, if you wanna go just go go far away, go far away...

Insyallah...

Anyway...last weeks was among the...hem what is the best word to describe it ya???...let me think....can i say horrible??....let used a more +ve word for it...."endurance"...hehhe...very2....

End of April news come in...as i got salaried revised...saw the salary slip....in disbelive.....WOW...WOW....WOW...that is the only word that come out from my mind and mouth....but as the big $$$$$ come in...i know what is the cathch here....

Rewind.....what happend for the past months

Back to back with few clients in the same time...date line...date line...dead line???...last week of April 38 hours without sleep...1st week of May....43hours more.....like seriously....(both of the week i create a new record...wearing the same working clothes and no bath...hahhahaha:P

Ok just what eva already...i''ll try my very best to overcome all this...just imagine that my life like a book...now the pages is the part where all the challenge comming in...hahaha...like the climax of my career life...just need to keep on turning the page...so that we can reach to the more relaxing and enjoying page/chapter of my life....

I see it as a push factor so that i can continue with my next move..keep on pending due to time and financial constrain...and of course....WORK....

Today take time to go register myself and learn what are the steps that i need to take in order to make my next move....insyallah with Allah will and bless...it will be easy...amin

As for now....next week need to go to immigration...to get the green card...

And hopefully everything will be smooth from there on....word from Sheikh Yusof Al-Qardawi....If Allah has destined ur rezeki ....no one can take it away from you......totally agreed.

Next step.....


Now prying and working hard to make it...and then...lets continue with what alse...hahahhaa...at office now....dancing with Lenovo...hhahahaa.....ya...ya i know its weekend...like what is weekend again for???....:p

How do i feel???

Anyway i been keeping this thing to my self for quite sometime.... Its weekend and i am at office....(even berlambak my work...i just do it with my normal speed...no rush baby...coz the work will never know its end...llalalalala) Ok continue....the main reason i want to post this entry is to pour down my feeling as i know nobody r actually reading this blog in the first place....hahahhaa....the best place to let go my feeling in writing.... Few weeks ago my niece get engange....dgn yakinnya i told her i dont want to be ur MOH...just let ur liltle sis do it...I just gonna be the crew behind the event only....but as expected when the time comes....dgn gediknya...acik la yg teman along....i am so scared...what the h****....ok layan je la....and as expected the most hatered thing happend...before hand let me clear few facts...i dont mind she getting married and i am happy for her...but please dont ever ask this question....why its not me???....or acik bila lagi...anak dah langkah emak ni....OMG....panas btl telinga ni....kalu tak dikenangkan my late parents named ....confirmed aku akan menjawab balik.....can u guys leave me alone....to the extend....hello if i am single is it ur problem in the 1st place...fyi..me my self did not see it as a problem in the 1st place...I dont want to get into a relationship because i have to....it should be i am the one that want it the 1st place.......like what ever.... To the extend...i dont want to go back to my kampung anymore....i have enough...fullstop!!! Ya Allah....please guide me to be a better Aaab' to you on each day that pass by...amin

Lots of thing in my head....

There are lots of things in my head right now...work...future...life....big change hopefully will be happend soon... Ya Allah give me strength...help me to face all this matters in my best capacity....guide me to the right path.... Short term goal....i wanna new watch!!!