I am leaving

JOY WILLIAMS - IF YOU WANNA GO

One more time sitting in a silent stare, and I'm the only one that's here,Let's just get it all out, Gimme every single word, even if it's gonna hurt... Cuz too many nights falling asleep,with all of these doubts stuck in between us,being polite is getting us nowhere now...

So if you wanna stay, just stay if you wanna go, if you wanna go just go So if you wanna stay, just stay if you wanna go,if you wanna go just go go far away, go far away...

So let's just fight maybe you could find some tears,and I could feel something real again you and i know we need to figure this out,tell me is it too late now...

Cuz too many nights falling asleep with all of these doubts stuck in between us,being polite is getting us nowhere now...

So if you wanna stay, just stay if you wanna go, if you wanna go just go ,So if you wanna stay, just stay if you wanna go, if you wanna go just go go far away, go far away...
We built too much just to stand and watch it fall apart... It hurts too much just to stay the way we are...

So if you wanna stay,just stay if you wanna go,if you wanna go just go So if you wanna stay, just stay if you wanna go, if you wanna go just go go far away, go far away...

Insyallah...

Anyway...last weeks was among the...hem what is the best word to describe it ya???...let me think....can i say horrible??....let used a more +ve word for it...."endurance"...hehhe...very2....

End of April news come in...as i got salaried revised...saw the salary slip....in disbelive.....WOW...WOW....WOW...that is the only word that come out from my mind and mouth....but as the big $$$$$ come in...i know what is the cathch here....

Rewind.....what happend for the past months

Back to back with few clients in the same time...date line...date line...dead line???...last week of April 38 hours without sleep...1st week of May....43hours more.....like seriously....(both of the week i create a new record...wearing the same working clothes and no bath...hahhahaha:P

Ok just what eva already...i''ll try my very best to overcome all this...just imagine that my life like a book...now the pages is the part where all the challenge comming in...hahaha...like the climax of my career life...just need to keep on turning the page...so that we can reach to the more relaxing and enjoying page/chapter of my life....

I see it as a push factor so that i can continue with my next move..keep on pending due to time and financial constrain...and of course....WORK....

Today take time to go register myself and learn what are the steps that i need to take in order to make my next move....insyallah with Allah will and bless...it will be easy...amin

As for now....next week need to go to immigration...to get the green card...

And hopefully everything will be smooth from there on....word from Sheikh Yusof Al-Qardawi....If Allah has destined ur rezeki ....no one can take it away from you......totally agreed.

Next step.....


Now prying and working hard to make it...and then...lets continue with what alse...hahahhaa...at office now....dancing with Lenovo...hhahahaa.....ya...ya i know its weekend...like what is weekend again for???....:p

How do i feel???

Anyway i been keeping this thing to my self for quite sometime.... Its weekend and i am at office....(even berlambak my work...i just do it with my normal speed...no rush baby...coz the work will never know its end...llalalalala) Ok continue....the main reason i want to post this entry is to pour down my feeling as i know nobody r actually reading this blog in the first place....hahahhaa....the best place to let go my feeling in writing.... Few weeks ago my niece get engange....dgn yakinnya i told her i dont want to be ur MOH...just let ur liltle sis do it...I just gonna be the crew behind the event only....but as expected when the time comes....dgn gediknya...acik la yg teman along....i am so scared...what the h****....ok layan je la....and as expected the most hatered thing happend...before hand let me clear few facts...i dont mind she getting married and i am happy for her...but please dont ever ask this question....why its not me???....or acik bila lagi...anak dah langkah emak ni....OMG....panas btl telinga ni....kalu tak dikenangkan my late parents named ....confirmed aku akan menjawab balik.....can u guys leave me alone....to the extend....hello if i am single is it ur problem in the 1st place...fyi..me my self did not see it as a problem in the 1st place...I dont want to get into a relationship because i have to....it should be i am the one that want it the 1st place.......like what ever.... To the extend...i dont want to go back to my kampung anymore....i have enough...fullstop!!! Ya Allah....please guide me to be a better Aaab' to you on each day that pass by...amin

Lots of thing in my head....

There are lots of things in my head right now...work...future...life....big change hopefully will be happend soon... Ya Allah give me strength...help me to face all this matters in my best capacity....guide me to the right path.... Short term goal....i wanna new watch!!!

Looking+Thinking

As obvious as the facts appears on the countdown...my days in Hell has end...and i should be free...but then all the oppourtunity that come..tak de yg intresting...

Currently...sabar je yg tinggal...pry hard i will find it soon and make my move to a much better place.....amin

Have U eva ???

Hehehheee...sorry this time round this particular entry will be a little bit "gedik"

Hahahahaa.....i think its ok...showed that i am still sane + normal

After nearlly a year without an obsession towards this kind of thing (when i taught i have lost it already)...i am glad it comes back to me...felt young a bit..ok its now sound nonsense....

I don't know how long it gonna last...but while its still there...better just enjoy it :)

Now start to felt a litle bit shy (ok stop bullshitting dear...u sound like a crazy girl already...n secrately i am smiling :P

Pictures tell u thousand of words...so lets the picture below explain it all as I have lost my word already....


p/s: everytime when i keep telling myself that mydear pls stop all this nonsense..its getting bigger + dipper...What the ****

"The memiors of LAKSA"

Noted that I have one particular weird behavior….I am food fanatic…especially one particular dish…LAKSA…to the extend…the 1st dish that I know how to cook is…”LAKSA”…yes out of so many dished…normally you will learned how to cook simple sup or curry or masak sambal or any other simple dish…but for me…I start it with LAKSA…hahahhahaa
This is due to when I was like standard 5…around 11 yrs old I guess….my craziness over laksa come to the highest limit….up to the extend my mom need to cook it…everyday…seriously I mean it everyyyyyyyyyyday…….coz i can breakfast…lunch n dinner with it….hahhahaha….my late mom call me hantu laksa…hahhaha….to the extend she tried to cook for me anymore..and suggest for me to learned to cook it…if I love it too much…so I can cook it every single day of my life…hahahahha…sound funny right…one might wonder why not just buy it??...yea…I am talking about our 15 years ago kindda living culture…where outside food is not favorable at all….anyway why buy when you can make a better one right??...

So that’s how thing go…now as I am living alone…n there is no kitchen at my place for the moment…n there are no such person that sell a gud laksa at my neighborhood…its really killing me…to the core….i am serious....no joke… I am nearly cry when I think of the laksa in my mind right now so I decide to write about it....hahahahhaa…hope it can ease me a bit.....funny right but that’s the truth…I wonder when I can get my hand on the good + delicious laksa…waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa (T_T)

p/s : Wish can get laksa utara+kuah eel /kerisi/ snapper…now how???