Alone...

I never really put a serious taught about it...until last night...when my brother call me...Q: Acik hg buat apa??...A: Apa lagi study la....Q: Alone??...A: Yup :)....Q: Hem hg tak rasa bosan ka?...A: Entah la i am happy...why?? Q: Pi la keluaq sat...jumpa sapa2 ka?...Q: Nak buat apa?...A: I dont know...anything...A: dah kot last wed' acik keluar tgk wayang+makan subway+jejln cari my new baletrina shoes and dress for my Office Annual Ball...lalalulu ...so its time for study....Q: Mind asking...hg buat tu sengsorang ist??...A: Yup...amazingly i am ahappy doing it alone....Q: Jangan cam tu....nanti hg menyesal.... A: I dont know..there must be a reason why all this thing happend....klau nak regret its in the future....i am talking about now....i am just chiling...coz i know deep in my heart i will find Him...n He will find me...when...how...n who...tu semua kerja Allah....now what i can do is being happy with my life now and improve my self to be a better person in every way... be +ve thats the most important part...:)

Then he change topic....n we talk about some other topics for a while n hung up the phone after penat membebel to each other....ahahhahaha



Me???....hemmmmm.....thanks for asking and worried about it...but seriouslly i am happy n pls pry for my happness thats all weather it is with or without someone call as Him in my life :)

Wedding n everthings in between.....

Seriouslly i have turn this blog as place for me to pour down my -ve vibe..hahhaa...what eva...no homosepian will read this bloody page in the 1st place....

Ok lets start...yesterday I was attending one of my best gf wedding back in uni....n amazinglly 90% people that comes to the event r with couples or partner already... just cool with it...it's not the 1st time....but all the sudden........one of my girl friend start this Question....Q: beb hg mai sorang ke?? (beb u r comming alone?? ).... A: Tak r hg tak nampak ka ada 2 3 org belakang aku...hahahahaa (dah nampak nak tanya lagi)...what eva....small matters....she shut up..

Thats only for starter...next the main course is on the way...when a guy friend come up with this topic at our table...Q:Sall hg bila lagi???...A: Bila apa??....Q: Hg tak cari kot....A&Q: Nak cari kat mana lagi habaq mai kat aku....A&Q: Kawan2 uni....A: Aku dah list down n sort out semua dah habis.....Q: Hg try la tnya paktam member2 dia ramai (my gf husband) apa....A: dah..dia tak layan...A&Q: sure ke...or hg dah reject semua....A: Ya Allah mcm mana aku nak reject kalu calonnya pun tak dak.....n the session went on and on and on.....sampai to the extend aku mintak next topic pls....dia buat donno ja....Oh Lord y must me????.......(ok tak baik tanya camtu...things happend for a reason....apa hikmahnya...we will wait n see la...)

I know people ask because thier concern about me...iam flattered....but when it goes overboard....meluat jgk rasanya nak jawab.....pls...doakan je la ok....hope i will find him soon...no rush...the most important thing is i am happy with my life now...:)

+++++ Currently Reading +++++

When people ask me how do u know what kind of books that will interest u???...my answer would be I just used my instict.....i know what i like when i see one...simple as that;)

One of it is this one....and my brother r dying to wait for me to finished it....

Among the 1st phrased of words that intrest me ......You dont have to have millions in your account to be financially independent...You just have to have a passive income that exceed your expenses....

and not to forget He lets the great men "carry" him.....

............more to comessssss........................................

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Selawat TAFRIJIYAH atau dipanggil Selawat NARIYAH




Ya Allah, Limpahkanlah rahmat yang sempurna dan berilah kesejahteraan yang sempurna kepada junjungan kita Nabi Muhammad Sallallahu Alaihi Wasalam yang menjadi sebab terlepasnya sesuatu yang masih mengalami jalan buntu dan terbukanya kesempitan serta didatanginya semua hajat dan di peroleh semua pemberian serta hasnul khatimah (bagus akhir hayatnya) dan diturunkan siraman mendung (hujan) lantaran keagungan baginda. (Dan limpahkanlah rahmat dan salam) kepada keluarga baginda, dan sahabat baginda di dalam setiap kelipan mata dan nafas dengan bilangan semua yang di ketahui oleh-Mu, Wahai Zat yang menguasai seluruh alam".

This is It!!!!

Doing a lot of thinking lately....hope and pray for the best....do pry for the best result in what ever i do and work on....Amin.....;)

The thinking continuessssssss............

How should i put it???...am i burnout???....seriously??...all the people around me consider myself as strong+independent+workholic+high achiver+perfectionist......seriously i don't feel any of the above right now....i felt bored...out of track...tired...easily get sick...ok...conclusion full with -ve taught....(that's not good at all)

Need to find cure for all of this as soon as possible.....(hard to think when u have running nose+tissue all over the place right now)....

Ok lets put all my worries tabulated:

1) When will i finished my professional paper??
2) Do i still want to stay at my firm after my contract ends???...looking at the countdown...it just another 100 ++ days to go...arghhhhhhhhhh ( i felt bored with my work already...am i???...or i just felt sad coz most of my closed friends are already making thier move....)
3) My weight....wawaaaaaaaaa (ok this one currently trying my best to make my RM2k investment worthed...i can do it!!!!!!...)
4) My health....cepat la sembuh...sedih coz can't be as active as before...(huhuuu....maybe thats why i become more depress lately)
5) Kat mana nak pindah???...nak cari rumah???...wahhhhhhhh...pening2....
6) Ok...yg plg sakit jiwa but aku buat tak reti je about it isssssssss...................bila nak kawin???...iam ready to get married???....mana nak cari calon???....(ok my self esteem in this area mmg dah menurun sesgt at this area...the reason is because......ok aku yg dah give up utk bercinta sbb the previous relationship still rs sakit sampai hari ni...ok aku still tak bleh nak lupa how painfull it is....learn to lets thing go my dear...its for ur own good)

Conincidence ist???..ntv7 right now discussing about partners...seriously....ok what i learn for the 15 min discussion....love your self...be happy with who you are....and be more +ve with your life....ok...love your self....love your self...love your self :)

My picture of the day....need to take care of my self more...enjoy it...flyyyyyyyyyyyyy :)

In My Head

Lot of things in my head right now....serabut...to the extend i will wake up too early in the morning eventhough i am tired.....maybe need to list it down and put it to priority...to overwhelmed with all the issues....please relex....take a deep breath.....allow ur brain to process things one by one and find the solution and pry to Allah that He always guide everthing that u do and the decision that u made....remember life is not only in this world...hereafter is the eternity that u looking for the eternal happiness......

Enough said.....lets the picture below self explained my condition right now.................




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p/s: Listening to Zain Bhikha - Our World d(^_^)b