How Cruel People Can Beeeeeeeeeeeeeee................

Mengungkit tu mmg tak baik aku tau...no need to remaind me about it..iam pretty sure what its all about...tapi this round mmg dah over...aku dok sabar je for the last few time apa yg dia buat kat aku..tapi ada limit kot...aku bknnya tggl kayu..or batu kat tepi jalan yg ko tak perlu acknowledge...mmg la aku tak harapkan apa2...tapi be nice bleh tak..??????

Jgn buat aku hate u...things gonna be ugly...
Am I not ur friends langsung ke???
Do i deserved to be treated like this ....tell me??
Relex....aku takkan loose my composure..
My dignity is very2 important...
Always
You will never know how good i am in acting as if i tak rasa apa2....
Inside......only Allah know

My ..........

Cause if you only knew what
I felt for you
You would have held on tighter
Fought a little harder
Been a little smarter and now you're gonna miss my love
And one day soon you'll see
You'll reach out for me
Boy you had a keeper
Didn't know how to treat her
Should have felt a little deeper and now you're gonna miss my love
Boy you had a keeper, didn't know how to treat her
Should have felt a little deeper and now you're gonna miss my love

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I sense there's something in the wind
That feels like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have
The worst is just around the bend
And does he notice my feelings for him?
And will he see how much he means to me?
I think it's not to beWhat will become of my dear friend?
Where will his actions lead us then?
Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud
Try as I may, it doesn't last
And will we ever end up together?
no, I think not, it's never to become
For I am not the one

Rapeing....

Now i know..who am i...i am the raper of his time...gosh i never knew that...i know it the hardest way...try to look it in the positive way...fine i try to learn the fact...eventhough its taught...i am stronger than this...seriouslly stronger...

So it is proven that i am not significant an unimportant person in the 1st place...
I am not going to find ways and excuses anymore... i am good with this..i have done it before and i will do it again...Allah had a better plan for me....TQ

Dah tak macam dulu.....

People change i know...tapi still dah rasa tak macam dulu...dulu yg aku mksdkan just a few days back...layakkah ia dipanggil dulu?...apakan yg aku rasa...kenapakah aku perlu rasa semua ni time2 aku nak exam ni?...kenapa?...dah mcm pelik aku rasa...banyaknya perasa...hahaahhaa...masih sempat aku nak ketawa...jgn lupa objective dan matlamat utama...u should be happy...thats the whole point...always remember that...

Skg ni aku rasa mcm menyiksa diri..bkn physically je...tp mcm tak percaya batin aku gaya tersiksa skg ni...ahhh...sudah...igt lagi apa yg berlaku sebelum ni...adakah aku tak belajar apa2 drpd apa yg berlaku sebelum ni?...emmm....entah la...

Aku skg ni mcm tengah decide sesuatu...tp....remember org tu pun kena happy gak..tapi aku rasa that fuller pun dah mcm loose intrest...so what???...ofcourse la ada what????...sbb aku rasa mcm sedih n menyiksa diri skg ni...aku try to pun a smile on my face...lagi aku buat...lagi la aku rasa plastic...kita leh tipu org lain tapi diri sendiri????.... apa yg aku buat skg ni???/...menyiksa diri namanya....

Soalan lagi...aku ni mmg unimportant or insignificant lagi ke??? Wait adakah aku pernah menjadi seorg yg important n significant dlm his life in the 1st place...nah terkeluar juga la..br nak buat it is a secret la sgt...its about Him....aku dah janji air mata aku takkan jatuh lagi utk seorg yg bernama lelaki yg aku tak tahu apa yg dia rasa.....aku tak pernah mintak lebih dr apa yg aku ada skg....nak panggil apa yg aku ada skg pun aku tak tau...tapi yg penting aku gembira and dulu dia pun gembira gak...tapi skg ni mcm dah lain....aku tak nak jd tamak...ada apa yg aku ada skg pun dah cukup membahgiakan aku...tapi skg ni...i kindda loosing it...

Apa yg aku tahu there is empty space...Ya Allah aku pohon kekuatan darimu..supaya kekosong ini di isi dgn sesuatu yg lebih baik...Engkau lebih mengetahui apa yg terbaik utk ku...tapi Ya Allah aku tersiksa sendirian di sini..aku tahu engkau selalu bersamaku...terlalu banyak yg telah Kau kurniakan kepada ku.....Terima Kasih....mungkin belum tiba masanya...banyak yg aku perlu perbaiki....tambahkan usaha utk menjadi seorg yg lebih bersyukur...lebih banyak bersabar...lagi byk Allah akan kurniakan...yg lebih baik...sesuatu yg aku tak leh nampak skg ni....I am a beautiful person... sp let him find his own happiness..and i pry the best for you... :)

Lagging....

OMG...2 of friends dah kawin last year n i just go to know about it...bolddy la....how come i do not know about it...dah lama sgt ke aku tak balik kampung until member lain kawin pun kau tak tau ni...seriouslly...okla one of it aku tak tersentap sgt...tp got 1 of it yg aku mmg tak budget langsung...dah la tak budget dgn siapa dia kawin lagi la shocking to me...kalu nak di metaforakan...the girl is like the Queen B in Gosip Girl...n that i guy...let me think....mamat watak tempelan je dlm drama tu...nak ckp bertapa so out of scopenya that fuller...maybe iam sound a little bit mean...tp thats is the reality...seriouslly...i still remember she never tgk ...even sebelah mata pun on this guy back in school...even time aku organize gattering last 3 year pun she still tak pandang this guy...amazing la on what had happend...aku berani say like this because i know her story...this guy pun around 3 years ago nak dgn org lain...tp that girl tolak sbb...ok let it me a secret je la....conclusion aku still tgh absorbt the info...wah i seriously amaze....yela dah JODOH...adala tu kot...mmg aku nak tau sgt how the story go...kena planning ni bila nak balik kampung.....jengjeng

Just enjoy the Show

Hemm...seriously just enjoy the show.....tak dak mood la plak nak merapek tonight...
Hope everything is gonna be great tommorow...hahahahhaha