Dah tak macam dulu.....

People change i know...tapi still dah rasa tak macam dulu...dulu yg aku mksdkan just a few days back...layakkah ia dipanggil dulu?...apakan yg aku rasa...kenapakah aku perlu rasa semua ni time2 aku nak exam ni?...kenapa?...dah mcm pelik aku rasa...banyaknya perasa...hahaahhaa...masih sempat aku nak ketawa...jgn lupa objective dan matlamat utama...u should be happy...thats the whole point...always remember that...

Skg ni aku rasa mcm menyiksa diri..bkn physically je...tp mcm tak percaya batin aku gaya tersiksa skg ni...ahhh...sudah...igt lagi apa yg berlaku sebelum ni...adakah aku tak belajar apa2 drpd apa yg berlaku sebelum ni?...emmm....entah la...

Aku skg ni mcm tengah decide sesuatu...tp....remember org tu pun kena happy gak..tapi aku rasa that fuller pun dah mcm loose intrest...so what???...ofcourse la ada what????...sbb aku rasa mcm sedih n menyiksa diri skg ni...aku try to pun a smile on my face...lagi aku buat...lagi la aku rasa plastic...kita leh tipu org lain tapi diri sendiri????.... apa yg aku buat skg ni???/...menyiksa diri namanya....

Soalan lagi...aku ni mmg unimportant or insignificant lagi ke??? Wait adakah aku pernah menjadi seorg yg important n significant dlm his life in the 1st place...nah terkeluar juga la..br nak buat it is a secret la sgt...its about Him....aku dah janji air mata aku takkan jatuh lagi utk seorg yg bernama lelaki yg aku tak tahu apa yg dia rasa.....aku tak pernah mintak lebih dr apa yg aku ada skg....nak panggil apa yg aku ada skg pun aku tak tau...tapi yg penting aku gembira and dulu dia pun gembira gak...tapi skg ni mcm dah lain....aku tak nak jd tamak...ada apa yg aku ada skg pun dah cukup membahgiakan aku...tapi skg ni...i kindda loosing it...

Apa yg aku tahu there is empty space...Ya Allah aku pohon kekuatan darimu..supaya kekosong ini di isi dgn sesuatu yg lebih baik...Engkau lebih mengetahui apa yg terbaik utk ku...tapi Ya Allah aku tersiksa sendirian di sini..aku tahu engkau selalu bersamaku...terlalu banyak yg telah Kau kurniakan kepada ku.....Terima Kasih....mungkin belum tiba masanya...banyak yg aku perlu perbaiki....tambahkan usaha utk menjadi seorg yg lebih bersyukur...lebih banyak bersabar...lagi byk Allah akan kurniakan...yg lebih baik...sesuatu yg aku tak leh nampak skg ni....I am a beautiful person... sp let him find his own happiness..and i pry the best for you... :)

Lagging....

OMG...2 of friends dah kawin last year n i just go to know about it...bolddy la....how come i do not know about it...dah lama sgt ke aku tak balik kampung until member lain kawin pun kau tak tau ni...seriouslly...okla one of it aku tak tersentap sgt...tp got 1 of it yg aku mmg tak budget langsung...dah la tak budget dgn siapa dia kawin lagi la shocking to me...kalu nak di metaforakan...the girl is like the Queen B in Gosip Girl...n that i guy...let me think....mamat watak tempelan je dlm drama tu...nak ckp bertapa so out of scopenya that fuller...maybe iam sound a little bit mean...tp thats is the reality...seriouslly...i still remember she never tgk ...even sebelah mata pun on this guy back in school...even time aku organize gattering last 3 year pun she still tak pandang this guy...amazing la on what had happend...aku berani say like this because i know her story...this guy pun around 3 years ago nak dgn org lain...tp that girl tolak sbb...ok let it me a secret je la....conclusion aku still tgh absorbt the info...wah i seriously amaze....yela dah JODOH...adala tu kot...mmg aku nak tau sgt how the story go...kena planning ni bila nak balik kampung.....jengjeng

Just enjoy the Show

Hemm...seriously just enjoy the show.....tak dak mood la plak nak merapek tonight...
Hope everything is gonna be great tommorow...hahahahhaha

TAkin' it away

Listsssssssss..............

1st pls take away my migrain ni
2nd study pls esk mock exam
3rd stop listing to the same song dah beratus kali the same song
4th study
5th i miss my family
6th i miss my parent...mak abah...can i join u??? ....i need u guyz (wish that never gonna come true)
7th What did i do till i deserve this?
8th Crap sambung study la

officially

hehehhe..i know no body gonna read all the crap that i put in this blog in the 1st place so officially i will turn this blog to channel all my frustration towards people...huhuhuu

1st let we start with my bos...dammit sesuka hati dia je tai chi everything to me...you think iam what nak aku mati ke?...with full confidence he ask me to finished up all the BS and worst of all together with his P&L crap la....he is known as the one yg paling hebat la tai chi...never taught its gonna be mua plak yg kena this time....tripple SSSSSSSSSSSS....out of all i am seriuoslly gonna be the expert in this field...tak pa....we not only living in this world....mati jugak one day...Allah ada bro ko buat kat aku one of those day ko sakit balik....bkn nak mendoakan benda buruk ...dah ko bagi aku shit mmg dpt shit balik la ......then that time u try la jawab kat dpn Alllah nanti about your responsibility...mana sempat...mampus la...sesuka hati plak siap give me deadline on Wednesday...so just count how many days that i got...stupid la...if small company bleh la...dah la buat account final 12 months....and plus its a bank...basterd...mmg kena sumpah la.....mmg la working in this line make me swearing like hell je...relex i know you can do it...

Now lets talk about how stupid boys can be....huhuhuhu....a bit harsh i know tp aku tgh sakit hati..so????
Just now when i call 1 of my junior...he made it loud speker ...apparently his driving....iam just returning his call ..coz last time he call i am in class...so what the hack...the issue here is that i overheard his friends saying kakak pun bleh bro....siap gelak2 yg sgt sakit hati....apasal ko igt aku nak mengorat ko ke...the best part yg buat aku lagi sakit hati is that...he turn out to be memalu plak...mmg nak makan penyepak aku bdk sorang ni...to the climax...dgn penuh selumber aku sound diaorg balik...you guys know me right back in uni...jgn sampai aku jumpa korang next time mmg sakit la aku buat...why???? aku mmg ikhlas nak tolong bdk sorang ni...as a senior...thats all...mampus ko la labu...one question...automatically once a girl call you is it means that she love you ke???...pls la....not applly to me definately...tak de ke dlm kamus hidup diaorg istilah friends...susah tul kalu hidup tu if u r just living in your same circle je...expand la sikit...see other people....frogee tul...ha kan dah keluar satu lagi verb swearing aku....

Hampes tul...dah la let me watch movie dulu ...relex myself for another hectic life tommorow...Ya Allah berila hamba mu yg sorang ni kebijaksanaan untk siapkan taggungjawab yg Kau berikan ini ....permudahkan la pekerjaan ku ini...amin

Delibearting

Seriously need to find time to serioueslly think about this...
Find time for it and make the decision eventhough it may not going to fulfill all the requirement...
You need to make one starting now ...
I keep putting this as my second important thing on my life
Time to make thing serious this time...

Direction please???

Just finished crawalling to someone blog just now....
To many interesting stories to read...

While in class last week sometning pop up in my mind...something that i search for few days nope correction few months...my next mission to be achive in with in 2 years...the whole objective of doing it and the most important thing is that why i should involved with it in the 1st place...

As simple as that...it will pop up in the lease expected

Lots of thing to be achieved...the issue here is only myself....

Improved...improved....improved....continue to climb....climb.....if u slip....just raise...if you got a cut and bleeding....find way to mend it .....see everything as oppurtunity instead of obstacle....never look back but only to learned from it...keep on with the speed of your live...and improved it...you deserved to have the best in your world...its not easy i know...but I believe in YOU...YOU should do the same.