You know what ??

You know what every time I say that I am fine…and that I am ok…I seriously laying to myself….yes I may look composed outside…but inside…I am loosing insanity…as for that I will stop saying that I am fine and I am ok…coz everytime when sumone ask me..r u ok…I will just put a simile in front of them…only Allah know what its really felt like inside…thus, I am saying loud and clear that I am not ok…I am hurt….the memory that I have is too sweet to remember….i need to learned how to let things go…that’s not going to be an easy job….i need to give chance for myself to be happy no matter what happened…

Salehah ur being injustice to ur own self now….pls love ur self 1st…its ok for being selfish…no matter what happened….ur the one that facing all this….c in the bright side ….u still have ur family+friends….Allah has give u so many thing please appreciate what you have now…and do not look to much at the things that ur loosing….maybe He is not good for u if we look at it in the future prospect…but guess what I have full faith in him…that’s why people say…when u really love sumone…others does not matters….maybe u should consider to love some that u may not going to fall in love with in the 1st place but it is logical to face the world and the reality…lots of people married to sumone that they are not in love with …a good example would be my mom ….she say when she married my dad…its was a challenge…she is not in love with him…but after nearly 40 yrs ++ she say I thanks Allah for give ur father as my husband….he is the best man I never know…and iam thankful for being his wife and mother to his child….and its really effect me….do hope that both of them are happy in Jannah…Amin :)